Special thnks to all those at stroke net who care enough to let you know their thinking about your problems and even go so far as to offer insightful help. I'm still fighting the depression but I just want people to know their thoughts and advice are greatly apprciated. Ireally don't know whedre I woul be without stroke net. I think I know but I won't go there. As far as ny depression goes I'm not even sure the stroke is the main cause I think I was depressed a long time before my stroke I just couldn't see it through all the self medication I was doing. I'm pretty sure that the dark bogeyman depression runs in my family and that both my mom and dad suffered from it. I guess that's why is so darn hard to find a fix for me. I can remember holidays like Mother's day that where very hard for my Mom to get through without having a depressed period. I have three brother but none of the have ever been depressed so othe than my Mom and Dad no one ele in my family. But I guess the two people who made you are pretty important when it comes to your make-up. Just writing this blog has made me feel a little better. Work has become a struggle but that's a whole different storey. Most peop[le would kill for my job, working in the digital photo world with little job pressure and I can even make my own hours. getting to play on the computer all day with no dealines ya it's a pretty cske job, but when your depressed even gold seems aw little worthless but I'm trying, and that's all I can ask of myself right now. Ihave to play everything on a day to day basis. I've started walking and that seems to help, I went about one mile yesterday came home and feel to sleep right away. And it was the good kind of sleep where when you wake up you feel rested and re charged, it almost seems like the depression oes away for a while. But of course it came back this morning so tonight we'll walk once more to see if it has a positive effect upon my depression. I sure it will. almost everything I read says exercise is a good way to fight depression so i'll try. never say never is goin to be my motto from now on, Pam called Last night but I guess I EAS OU T WALKING. SHE SAYS MY IN BOX IS FULL, AND i DON'T KNOW HOW TO EMPTY IT OR CLEAN IT UP. IN FACT i'M NOT SURE HOW TO EVEN ACESSIT. STROKE NET DUMMY. MY left hand keeps hitting the all caps ke so that's wwhy half my blog is in all spd. well getting prettytired doing nothing so sing off for today.