AS I HAVE ALREADY POSTED ON THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS, MY FRIEND CHARLES RAMSEY IS IN THE HOSPITAL WITH STROKE SYMPTOMS. I AM SO UPSET I CAN'T CONCENTRATE. I HAVE TO BLOG IT SO I CAN EVEN FUNCTION. I HAVE MADE FRIENDS ON THIS SITE I LOVE VERY DEARLY. BUT CHARLES HAS BEEN A SUPPORTIVE BIG BROTHER TO ME FOR MANY MONTHS AND THERE ISN'T A DAY THAT GOES BY THAT WE DON'T COMMUNICATE.

I HAVE NEVER REALLY TOLD HIM JUST HOW MUCH HE MEANS TO ME, BUT NOW I KNOW I SHOULD HAVE DONE SO!!! IF I LOSE HIM, IT WILL BE A TYPE OF PAIN I HAVE NEVER EXPERIENCED. HE HAS BEEN THERE TO LEND HIS SHOULDER WHEN I DIDN'T THINK I COULD MAKE IT MORE TIMES THAN I CAN COUNT. I DON'T NORMALLY TELL MY "REAL" THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS OFTEN OUT OF PERHAPS PRIVACY, OR FEAR. BUT THE FEAR OF LOSING CHARLES OUTWEIGHS ALL OF THAT.

CHARLES IS THE BIG BROTHER I NEVER HAD AND I LOVE HIM FROM DEEP IN MY HEART. AND WHEN HE MAKES IT, CUZ I FEEL HE WILL, I WILL TELL HIM MYSELF!!!

I WILL NEVER EVER AGAIN NOT TELL SOMEONE HOW I FEEL ABOUT THEM BECAUSE OF FEAR OR PRIVACY. I NOW REALIZE, SOMETIMES THERE MAY NOT BE A SECOND CHANCE.