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WHAT IF?


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I COULD GO ROUND AND ROUND ALL DAY IN CIRCLES WONDERING WHAT IF???? IN FACT ONE OF MY OLDEST FRIENDS SAID HE WAS GOING TO RENAME ME "WHAT IF BRASHER", A LONG TIME BEFORE THIS STROKE, GUESS THAT DIDN'T CHANGE!!!!! biggrin.gif

 

SO TODAY, I THINK I'LL EXPLORE "WHAT IF" IN A DIFFERENT MORE POSITIVE LIGHT.

 

 

 

 

WHAT IF????????? uhm.gif

 

1) I WAS NEVER BORN

 

LOTS OF STUFF FLOWS THROUGH MY MIND,BUT, IN THE MINDSEST OF "IT'S A WONDERFUL LIFE", ONE THING COMES TO THE FOREFRONT.

 

I HAVE ACTUALLY SAVED SOMEONE'S LIFE IN A PHYSICAL SENSE ONCE. BACK IN 1984 WHEN I WORKED FOR A BANK, I REALLY LIKED ONE OF THE EMPLOYESS, INGER. SHE WAS SWEET AND A REALLY GOOD PERSON. ONE DAY SHE WAS ROLLING A 500+ POUND MONEY SAFE FROM THE VAULT AND SOMEHOW SHE SLIPPED OVER THE HUMP IN THE FLOOR AND THE WHOLE THING FELL ON TOP OF HER.

 

THERE WAS MAJOR PANIC CALL 911!!!!!! MALE EMPLOYEES TRYING TO LIFT IT OFF OF HER, AND SHE WAS TURNING BLUE. SOME UNKNOWN ENERGY SWEPT THROUGH MY BODY AND I KNEW I COULD DO IT. I WAS ABOUT 115 LBS AT THE TIME. I JUST WALKED OVER AND LIFTED IT OFF OF HER WITH EASE. SHE HAD A FEW CRACKED RIBS AND A PUNCTURED LUNG, BUT SHE WAS OK. I CAN'T EXPLAIN IT, IT JUST HAPPENED. I DO NOT THINK SHE WOULD HAVE LIVED, SHE DIDN'T EITHER.

 

I REMEMBER THINKING THAT DAY, WOW, I MUST BE HERE FOR A REASON??? I DIDN'T EVEN SUSTAIN A PULLED MUSCLE. I CAN ONLY IMAGINE THE LIVES SHE HAS TOUCHED SINCE THEN. THAT'S A GOOD FEELING.. I HAD'NT THOUGHT ABOUT IT UNTIL JUST NOW IN YEARS. I CAN'T EXPLAIN IT EITHER, IT JUST HAPPENED. WHAT IF? uhm.gif

 

 

2) I HAD NEVER MARRIED THIS SOON TO BE EX HUSBAND

 

 

WELL, LOTS OF THINGS, BUT ONE STANDS OUT. BECAUSE OF HIS POOR DRIVING I WOULD HAVE NEVER SUSTAINED A HEAD INJURY LEADING TO THIS STROKE. I WOULD HAVE NEVER JOINED THIS SITE. I WOULD HAVE NEVER ENJOYED THE COMRADERY OF PEOPLE NOT UNLIKE MYSELF. I WOULD HAVE NEVER MADE LIFETIME FRIENDSHIPS LIKE THE ONES I HAVE MADE HERE, AND MAYBE EVEN OTHER THINGS I HAVEN'T EVEN DISCOVERED YET, YEAH WHAT IF? uhm.gif

 

 

 

3) I HAD BIOLOGICAL CHILDREN?

 

WELL, THAT REMAINS TO BE SEEN. BUT FOR THE TIME BEING, I DON'T THINK I COULD HAVE GIVEN MY STEPDAUGHTER THE COMPLETE ONE ON ONE ATTENTION SHE SO DESPARATELY NEEDED. INSTEAD OF BEING THE BEAUTIFUL WELL ADJUSTED SMART GIRL SHE IS, SHE COULD HAVE ENDED UP LIKE HER BIOLOGICAL MOTHER. AND I WON'T EVEN GO THERE. WHAT IF uhm.gif

 

 

4) I HAD NO SENSE OF HUMOR?

 

I DON'T THINK I COULD MAKE IT THROUGH MOST DAYS. I WOULD BE A SULLEN, DEPRESSED, BORING OLD GRUMPY SOUR PUSSED FACED HAG, THAT'S WHAT. WITH NO JOY IN MY HEART TO SHARE WITH OTHERS. WHAT IF? uhm.gif

 

 

 

5) I HAD A BROTHER

 

THEN I DON'T THINK I'D FEEL AS STRONG A NEED FOR MALE FRIENDSHIP, AND MAN WOULD I HAVE MISSED OUT ON SOME GREAT FRIENDS!!!!!! NOW I HAVE BROTHERS, SEVERAL OF THEM, AND THEY ARE PRECIOUS TO ME. TO USE A "TWIST" ON THAT MOMMIE DEAREST QUOTE ABOUT ADOPTED CHIDREN ....."ADOPTED BROTHERS ARE THE LUCKIEST IN THE WORLD BECAUSE THEY ARE CHOSEN"...... OR AM I THE LUCKY ONE????? MMMMMM I THINK I AM.

WHAT IF uhm.gif

 

 

 

LIKE I SAID, I COULD GO ROUND AND ROUND IN THE "WHAT IF" CATEGORY. THOSE ARE A FEW THAT JUST POPPED INTO MY HEAD.

 

 

WHAT IF HADN'T WRITTEN THIS BLOG AND ANSWERED THE PHONES LIKE I PROBABLY SHOULD HAVE IN THE LAST THIRTY MINUTES?

 

 

I KNOW THE ANSWER TO THAT MYSTERY. I WOULDN'T HAVE HAD TIME TO EAT THIS SANDWICH AND GET MAYO ALL OVER THE KEYBOARD, AND I WOULD BE UPTIGHT INSTEAD OF RELAXED!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH, WHAT IF uhm.gifuhm.gifuhm.gif

 

 

 

 

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kim:

 

I like your whatifs, but its best not to worry about past and just enjoy what you got positive out of it, every life experience we have good or bad if we learn something from it, then it becomes positive experience

 

Asha

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I give the advice often to do what you really want to do, that way you won't go through life with the what ifs.

 

Now, I just have to learn to practice what I preach biggrin.gif .

 

One person touches so many lifes it's uncanny. Everyone who looks at you is touched in some way. Everyone who speaks with you is touched. As you can see, you touch so many lifes, and these lifes touch more lives. We create a spider web that wouldn't exist if we didn't exist.

 

Enjoy life to the fullest, and try to keep your what ifs to a minimum. Besides, I'm sure one day you'll find someone who will turn your what ifs into I'm happy it all worked out.

 

Michael

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I disagree with some of the comments. I loved your blog. I believe "what if's are part of life."

 

Read an article on DNA recently. (Don't believe it was here) But it said, we leave our DNA everywhere we've been. "What if" someone never figured that out?

 

I had a bit about people you meet. Some just in passing, some become life long friends. Why? "What if?" uhm.gif

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hey incrediblw hulk!!!!dont live ur life by wat if's live ur life by now

and wat if ur 4-wheeler gets stuck in mudd again

wat if ur rebel flag gets stolen

wat if somebody steals dat cardboard out of ur window of ur car cus it fits there window better

so wat if ur hubby is ur cussin

lol kim hope u laugh outa dis tryin ta cheer ya up stumpgurl

lol

b cool b bright

peace luv n happiness

beer.gif b for right now no wat if's ok

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The thing is Kim. Your what if is kind of like the movie "The Butterfly Effect". What one person does may affect (intentionally or unintentionally) many hundreds or thousands of people.

 

Ponder that thought my dear.... uhm.gif

 

Charles

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