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I HATE AUGUST


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well I have never liked August very well, my 6 yr old son passed away from neuroblastoma on August 8th after fighting a courageous battle. My best friend was visiting me in August and he son commited suicide on August 4th.

My friend Carol and I met whenour sons were in kindergarden. We hit it off right away..we both had 2 kids, our two oldest in kindergarden, then my daugter and she had another son a little younger than my daughter. We became very close and did everything together. People called us the "bobbsey twins"..we even got jobs at the same store..We were ther for each other thru thick and thin. When I had to rush Aaron to the hospital all I had to do was call Carol and she was ready to take Tracy for me..when her husband was abusive betqween the two of us we scrapped the money together for bus tickets and money for food for her and the boys to get to Washington..where I had moved. she stayed 4 months, and then her husband was in a very bad car accident so they went back to Ohio. My husband at the time was getting very ill and ended up on dialysis, I ran the dialysis unit at home for a little over a year and he passed away. The next year Carol's husband had a brain anueuryism and passed away...

She was out here visiting me and her oldest son commited suicide..what a nightmare..just before 21....

I got a phone call today from her sister....Carol is inthe hospital, she was diagnosed with cancer, very aggresive..has already spread to liver and brain. I got to talk to her a few minutes tonight, but she had just returned to her room from her first radiation treatment and her family was there..She said can you call me in the morning I will be better able to talk then...so I am counting the hours until morning and I can call.. I was okay talking to her sister, but as soon as we heard each other's voices we both choked up.. and I know she didn't want to break down in front of her parents....and I am worried, scared and all....it is going to be a long night and I am trying to put it in god's hands.. I am just rambling at ths point and keep thinking of the funny crazy things we did and pictures in my mind of the kids playing. we helped each other paint our houses and layed carpet. she kept me sane after my sons death. the phone calls and visits taking her to Victoria and sight seeing in Seattle. the 3,000 miles distance but how close we stayed anyway. A friend in a million a sister of my heart...

I do not want to lose her, but it is in God's hands now, I do not want her to suffer,

I just want to yell..why...this is harder than the stroke and recovery....

I am hoping for a miracle....I want to jump on a plane and fly back, when I talk to her tomorrow I am hoping to knoe more...and if possible I will get back there somehow....she has a stong support system, family with her...

well will try to sleep so morning gets here faster....

I just had to get this out....

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Oh Bonnie it is hard when a friend so close to your heart is in such a sad situation.

I'll pray for you and for her.

Hope you got some sleep.

Sue. pash.gif

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Bonnie, I know the way you feel about August; with me the month was November. I hated seeing it come when a family member was sick and/or old.

 

You know it is said that we don't lose people that are close to us - for this reason. We will always have memories of them as long as we live, therefore they are always a part of us.

 

I wish you and your friend many more years of memories - but good ones. Tomorrow is September 1st and maybe you will get your miracle.

 

With all the destruction going on with the war and Mother Nature, things have got to start looking up and for you, I hope it starts this morning when you make your call.

 

My prayers, thoughts and energy will be with you today. pash.gif

 

Phyllis

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Thanks Sue and Phyllis. I talked to Carol this am...she sounds good, she has been a member of AA for years...I know she is frightened, and still trying to "digest" this news ..the doctors are going to treat it aggressively.. and she is trying to stay positive.

Thanks for your kind words and prayers..

Bonnie

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BONNIE,

 

AUGUST SUX FOR ME TOO WITH ONE EXCEPTION, A DEAR FRIEND'S BIRTHDAY. THE TWO CLOSEST LIFETME FRIENDS I HAD DIED THIS MONTH. ONE LAST YEAR, AND THE OTHER IN 1982. TO TOP IT OFF, IT'S HOT AND MISERABLE!!!!!

 

 

LOVE YA GIRL

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Bonnie,

Dont really know what to say that will be any comfort to you. You are in my thoughts. I hope Carol begins to rally round.

Take care

Mary

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Thanks Mary & Kim, had a good talk with her today, she understands how serious and we may not get the outcome we hope for, but we will hope for the best and she is trying to keep a positive outlook. We talked of understanding and acceptance and I told her I asked Aaron to be with her to give her strength and comfort. we will be talking often ... and thank you all for the comforting words and prayers. I told her what a wonderful place I had found here.

Bonnie

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Bonnie,

Sweetie, I am so sorry to hear about all of your losses in August. It is not fair!!

 

Tomorrow is Sept 1, maybe that'll be a better month. I am glad to know you have a rock our savior Jesus Christ to give your problems over too. You are in my prayers. Love ya!

-Amy

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Thank you Amy, am doing a little better today and talked to Carol twice, I sat down and typed her a letter that i will get in the mail tomorrow. It has helped so much with all your wishes and prayers. I truly Thank God for leading me to this site.

Bonnie

 

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Bonnie:

I know sometime things are harder but we have to live life an give all our worries and problems to God, and he will take care of us, I lost my day old baby on my sister's birthday in febuary, and also got my stroke in feb, but try to find something positive in every negative experience. I firmly believe God never gives us more than we can handle, and it also surrounds us by support system

 

asha

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