Well I had my follow up appointment for labs, etc.

Think this last month has been toooo busy. I find I need quiet time without a lot of external input.. My comfort zone. Too many things going on, trying to do to many things and boom, melt down. I am not usually like this.

Spoke with doctor, my blood pressure is doing well yesterday it was 102/60

I have osteporosis (just beginning) so he has added Caltrate plus 2 a day and Fosamax with vitamin D once a week. Also Vytorin for triglycerides and cholesterol. After talking he thinks the antidepressant I am on is just not doing it..SO now I am on cymbalta. he says it should help re-set my sleeping clock, also helps with fatigue and he is hoping it will help with the pain and aching.

Here's hoping for a quieter month, and for the new wonder drug to work.

I am also signed up for my flu shot, so when they get it in they will call me.

I have cancelled my appointment for the colonoscopy, will do it later, just am feeling at this point I am not up to dealing with one more thing right now.

I need to focus on getting back to feeling good. My old interests and recovery.

Have had to deal with the death of my best friend.

I have not been "susy sunshine" or very happy the last few weeks.

John has been short handed at work. I tried to go in and help, but yesterday I ended up sitting in the office and crying for 20 minutes. I think he was a bit frustrated with me. He sort of understands I get tired, but I don't usually get this emotional. I have always been the strong one and I think it freaked him out when I lost it. His reaction was not what I needed...

Told him dr. changed my antidepressant and he said well something isn't working and should be changed. It is hard when you look fine, no really noticable deficits. It is hard to tell someone it is not fine inside your head. On a one on one coversation or day to day things I can function. It is when too much comes at you and you are trying to do several things. It is like a circuit overload and the fuse blows. Well heres hoping for a quiet few days. Time to rec-charge and let the gray matter settle down.

My sister tends to dump her emotional problems on me, and I have just had to let it go for awhile.