I'm okay I guess considering how I am trying to keep my chin up and not totally give in to depression. Yet I also feel vulnerable. I do not want something else to throw me off kilter. There are times I feel confused inside and still trying to find myself because the stroke has made an impact on me for sure. I look at my life and try to understand my behaviour. Will I ever be able to put all the pieces in place?! It seems so difficult, tedious and at times overwhelming. No wonder I get discouraged. I wish that life would be less harsh on me. I've felt too many times the rug being pulled from under my feet. I still do not have closure with my divorce in 1992. I still love him.

I still do not have closure with not being able to have children. I just want to know why, even if it is to show me that it was what was BEST for me. I do not know this! I WANT TO KNOW why my marraige had to end in divorce when all I ever wanted was to love him and feel loved by him.

That's all I want to know so I can begin to heal. PLEASE!