NO WONDER
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:juggle: NO WONDER I AIN'T HUNGRY. I MADE SOME POST SOMEWHERE ABOUT NEVER BEING HUNGRY LATELY AND SEVERAL MEMBERS WERE AFRAID MY OLD EATING DISORDER MIGHT HAVE BEEN RE-IGNITED. HECK, I GOT WORRIED MYSELF. THEN TODAY, MOTHER CALLED AND SAID" DID YOU ***EVER**** GO GET THAT CHECK UP LIKE YOU WERE **SUPPOSED** TO BY APRIL 5TH?. YOU PROMISED YOU WOULD GO TO A HOSPITAL UP THERE IN KENTUCKY. REMEMBER?" I HAD'NT A CLUE. I SAID" WHAT TEST?". MOTHER WAS LIVID. SHE SAYS "SURELY TO GOD YOUR MEMORY CAN'T BE THAT BAD KIM, FOR THE ***E-COLI*******!"
ALL OF A SUDDEN IT HIT ME. I HAD ***COMPLETELY **** FORGOTTEN ABOUT THAT OR EVEN HAVING THE E-COLI INFECTION.
ABOUT A MONTH BEFORE I MOVED UP HERE I HAD FLU LIKE SYMPTOMS THAT HAD PROGRESSED TO 103+ DEGREE FEVER. I WAS HURTING IN MY KIDNEY. MOTHER KEPT ON AND ON UNTIL I LET HER TAKE ME TO A DOC IN THE BOX WHO SAID THEY DIDN'T KNOW WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME FOR SURE AND INSISTED I BE ADMITTED TO THE HOSPITAL. MUCH TO MY CHAGRIN, I FIGURED, WHY CAN'T THEY JUST GIVE ME AN ANTIBIOTIC FOR A KIDNEY INFECTION AND LET IT BE. THE DOCTOR SORTA SCARED ME, SO I WENT.
ANYWAY, THEY CAME BACK WITH " YOU HAVE AN E-COLI BACTERIAL INFECTION." I HAD TO STAY THERE 2 DAYS AND TAKE MASSIVE IV ANTIOBIOTICS AND I INSISTED THEY DISCHARGE ME. THEY DID, BUT I HAD TO TAKE SOMETHING CALLED LEVAQUIN, OR SOMTHING LIKE THAT FOR FOURTEEN DAYS AT $313 DOLLARS FOR 14 PILLS AND COME BACK FOR A RE-RUN OF THE BLOOD TEST WITHIN A MONTH TO MAKE SURE IT WAS ALL OUT OF MY SYSTEM.
THE ONLY WAY I COULD HAVE GOTTEN E-COLI WAS FROM THIS NEW GROCERY STORE, WHO SHALL REMAIN NAMELESS, BUT IT IS A NATIONAL CHAIN. I WENT ON THIS FRUIT AND VEGGIE ONLY KICK FOR 2 MONTHS, BUT WAS TOO LAZY TO CUT UP MY OWN, SO I BOUGHT AND ATE NOTHING EXCEPT THAT FROM THEIR DELI IN THAT TIME FRAME. I CALLED THE HEALTH DEPARTMENT AND REPORTED IT, I HAVE NO IDEA THE OUTCOME. I SHOULD HAVE SUED.BUT HOW DO YOU PROVE SOMETHING LIKE THAT?
ANYWAY, I THINK IT'S ALL GONE NOW, BUT IT MAKES SENSE THAT A PERSON WOULDN'T EXACLY BE HUNGRY FOR AWHILE AFTER AN ILLNESS LIKE THAT. IF YOU HAVE IT ****YOU WILL HAVE A FEVER, DIAHREA, AND SEVERE PAIN IN THE AFFECTED ORGAN(S). I'LL GO GET THE TEST TO BE SURE, BUT I AM ASYMPTOMATIC, EXCEPT FOR THE NOT BEING HUNGRY PART.
THAT E-COLI IS SOME SERIOUS BUSINESS AND WILL RAVAGE YOUR SYSTEM. A LOT OF PEOPLE ARE NOT AWARE YOU CAN GET IT FROM FRUITS AND VEGGIES, BUT YOU CAN. TWO MAJOR WAYS. CROSS CONTAMINATION OF INFECTED MEAT FROM IMPROPER FOOD HANDLING, AND PRODUCE THAT HAS BEEN FERTILIZED WITH MANURE FROM AN INFECTED ANIMAL. I KNOW *EEEEEWWWWWWW*****. THAT'S HOW IT IS THOUGH. IT IS ( OR CAN BE) DEADLY.
SO **NOW** I AM AN E-COLI SURVIVOR. I SWEAR, I FEEL LIKE THE GRIM REAPER IS RUNNING AFTER ME SINCE I BEAT HIM OUT BY SURVIVING THIS STROKE. I HAVE HAD SO MANY "NEAR MISSES" SINCE SURVIVING THIS STROKE IT'S UNCANNY. IT'S A SURREAL FEELING TO KEEP ON "GETTING BY" AND ESCAPING DEATH. IT'S NOT LIKE I AM RUNNING IN FRONT OF MOVING VEHICLES OR ANYTHING. JUST TRYING TO EAT HEALTHY FOR GOD'S SAKE.
WHAT'S NEXT? I" M WAITING, PATIENTLY. WILL I SLIDE OFF THIS MOUNTAIN IN A FREAK SNOWSTORM? (HECK, THAT ALMOST ALREADY HAPPENED) WILL I BE EXERSIZING WITH WEIGHTS AND A PIECE OF THE DUMBELL BE FAULTY AND SMASH ME IN THE HEAD? WILL I BE EATING FISH AND CHOKE ON A BONE LIKE MAMA CASS? WILL I TRIP OVER A CAT AND BREAK MY NECK WALKING DOWN THESE STAIRS? WILL I BE JOGGING AND TRIP OVER A FREAK ( STEP ON A CRACK BREAK YOUR MAMA'S BACK ) CRACK AND SPILL MY BRAINS ON THE SIDEWALK?
THE POSSIBILITIES ARE ENDLESS. SOMETIMES I THINK, I MUST BE SAFE, I AIN'T DEAD YET, I MUST BE HERE FOR A REASON. THEN SOMETIMES I WANT TO SHOUT TO THE SKIES" JUST COME GET ME!!!!! STOP PRETENDING. YOU KNOW WHERE I AM!!!!! STOP MAKING ME THINK I AM GOING TO HAVE A HAPPY LIFE ONLY TO WATCH PARTS OF ME SLOWLY TAKEN AWAY!!!!!!! STOP PLAYING WITH ME, JUST GET IT OVER WITH PALEASE!!!!!!!!!
ANYWAY, AT LEAST THE EATING DISORDER AIN'T BACK. OH YEAH, I AM A SURVIVOR OF THAT TOO FOR 15 YEARS. SO, ***SOMETHING*** HAS BEEN TRYING TO KILL ME FOR FIFTEEN YEARS!!!!!! I AM NOT AFRAID THOUGH. I JUST DON'T WANNA BE IN PAIN OR CAUSE ANYONE I LOVE TO HAVE TO WATCH ME SUFFER OR TAKE CARE OF ME, THAT'S ALL I ASK. I HOPE AT LEAST THAT WISH IS GRANTED. MAYBE I SHOULD TAKE UP SKYDIVING OR MOUNTAIN CLIMBING AND MAKE IT EASIER FOR WHOEVER IS IN CHARGE OF ALL THIS LIFE AND DEATH STUFF.
THEN PEOPLE CAN SAY AT MY FUNERAL......." IT WAS THAT DARE DEVIL LIFE OF HERS THAT KILLED HER. WE EAT VEGGIES AND FISH, JOG, AND WORK OUT WITH WEIGHTS. IT CAN'T HAPPEN TO US".
KIM :juggle:
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