I know I've covered this subject before but it keeps rearing it's ugly head.

I cannot get my fat a** motivated to get moving and get around. What's the use? Why do it? What difference does it make if I go to ther effort of cleaning up and going to the exercise class or if I stay in my bed clothes all day? who cares?

I really do not feel 'better' after exercising. Actually, I 'feel' more and more dissappointed for lack of results from having done the exercise. Nothing seems to ever improve. It's been 4 years since my life died. There is nothing that has been improved by my being here.