"Pity party for one?"

I am having a heck of a time remaining positive anymore...

I get ladened with thoughts and feelings of bitterness that I have to recover as best I can from something I spent most of my life trying to prevent (watched weight, BP, ate healthy, exercised, didn't smoke, etc).

Dang it all - I practically preached a healthy way of life. I come from a long line of regreters & I admit that I regret that I didn't take full advantage of my health the way I should have AND of course I regret not going to the doctors sooner and demanding an MRI when I first went to the doctor with the TIA (transient ischemic attack).

Bloody H-E-double hockey sticks!

pity party over and out.