I blogged yesterday. It was not a pretty sight. Funny thing is, I don't remember all that was in it - but I remember the feelings I had.

At the time the site was having problems it was suggested we go to Microsoft and download a patch. Somehow IE7 downloaded - my doing, I'm sure. Since that time I've been struggling with my computer freezing. Yesteray when I went to post my blog it happened. FREEZE....lost the blog. I think it was my computer doing for me what I couldn't do for myself. (That's a thought 12-step programs use, but I replaced "Higher Power with computer.)

Nothing has changed between yesterday and today - except me. For some reason I can be in such a funk one day, and the next day I'm fine. It's an inside job because the outside stuff hasn't changed.

I've been intrigued by the responses to Budweiser's question regarding our one Christmas wish. My wish is for acceptance - but not even in the stroke world. I've accepted the strokes and their ramifications long ago. I want to be able to accept some personal situations - not related to Bill, or Bill and me - that raised that ugly head over the week-end. I want to accept an attitude on the part of someone that is hurtful. I want to once and for all accept the fact that I don't have control over anyone or anything other than me and my attitude.

If I can master the technique of acceptance I'll be a more serene person. I won't have as many frustrating days because I'll be able to stop and ask the question, "how important is it?" before my mind goes crazy over what SHOULD BE instead of what IS. I won't waste my time thinking how much better I'd be at organizing this or that....I'll be thankful I didn't have to do it! I won't spend so much time whining!!!

I'd even make acceptance a New Year's resolution - but I don't do those things because it's an easy thing to resolve, and an easier thing to forget about it.

What a beautiful day it is here. After a frigid week-end (30's in North Carolina is frigid) it's already in the mid 50's and the promis of low 60's sounds really, really good. mmmmmmmm....