Whoaaaaaaaa!!! I just read what I wrote this morning about the religious, spiritual thing. LOL..Man was I pms..ing or what??? Actually I toned it down some from what I was really feeling. Holy Cow!! I won't take it back though. One of my problems was always caring about what people think of me. Guess I'm overcoming a bit in that area. YA THINK???

I'm also thinking blogging is a good thing because I sure feel better!!

Another pms or premenapausal story, they're all one and the same any more . Yesterday I had already had enough frustration for an entire week and all before 9:00 am. My husband was with me when I finally got to my doctor appt. at 9 and I after that I was on my way to take him to my sister's house which he loves of course.

Anyway, I was bitching about everything, including the doc. appt. taking too long, needing gas, being late and all the other stuff that happened and had nothing to do with him. Well he kept saying "Just take me home". Of course I said NO!! since we were on the way. When we arrived at my sister's I said I'm sorry for being so bitchy, he said nothing, got out of the car and shut the door.

Later that afternoon he called me at my office and asked how I was and that he was sorry. I said "You didn't do anything I was being a bitch". He replied "I was being a bitch too". But I kept telling him it was my fault.

So at my therapist appt. this afternoon I told her what had happened and she said there you go again. He didn't accept your apology when he got out of the car and after he had time to think about it was taking responsibility for his actions too. She said Cindy...you need to let him take his responsibility in your relationship. Wow, what a revelation!! I tried to cover for him again.

I'm learning.....and it was such a relief to realize what I had done and from now on allow him to be himself and take responsibilty too. This therapy thing is wonderful. I wish I would have known 2 years ago. I feel GREAT!!!!!!!