been a while since i have been on this site :forgive_me?: , everything has been fine just was a hard winter, the cold was difficult as it aggravated the spasticity, also this spring my allergies have acted up, not going out much didn't help fight the depression either so was caught up in the cycle of hurt to much to do much then depressed when didn't do much, now my husband wants me back with him and after much prayer and brooding i am going back, he wasn't bad to me and other than physically not being around he did what he could, he kept up medical insurance and kept the car insured plus provided me with a cell phone, yes he could of done more, i believe once we were separated it was easier to stay that way, he wasn't sure i would take him back since he hadn't helped enough, but what is enough, i was made stronger and less fearful by what has gone on, plus have a deeper relationship with God, what is so bad with that, i have more confidence than soon after my stroke, i have bio;t a good life through all the problems that has entailed have an extended church family, so in about a month i will be moving, back to Indianapolis, starting a new med for the spasticity, maybe will be better in the cooler weather there. also will be a chance of resuming some of the things i miss.