I really want to ask about the clowning side job. But I'm much too polite to come right out with it. Is part time clown different than full time clown?

Now that I know how to do this, I want to let everyone know that a part time clown is someone who has a lot of fun clowning and doesn't care about the money. A full time clown is someone who can make a living at it!

It just occurred to me that I never cloned for Kelley the whole three weeks that he was in the hospital. Even though I am a certified hospital clown and have 5 years of experience making people who are in the hospital forget why they are there, I never bothered to do it for my husband. I wonder if that has anything to do with the fact that I was not surprised that he had the stroke. He was a 58 year old diabetic who didn't bother to take care of himself. I knew in my heart that he would have a stroke, I just didn't know when. I guess I really figured I'd be out of the marriage before he stroked. Silly me.

The really strange thing is that we have a different relationship. We laugh a lot more now than we have in several years. I don't know if it will be a real "marriage" but I do love him and will do all I can to care for him now that he is ill. Having this outlet has been a real lifesaver for me. Thank you all for listening!

Bonnie Lynn