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Prestroke, I used to cry at nothing, reading a sad book watching a sad movie or hearing a sad story.Poststroke , let's say a couple of years , I had cried so much after my ex left me, then after stroke, I became a piece of ice, those few years, I had kept so much inside to show I was strong in front of family and friends, I just couldn't cry anymore except when I was telling someone my story about divorce or stroke. When I met my partner, he encouraged me to express myself in words and emotionnally. No wonder I burned out in 2001, I had been keeping everything inside me for 20 years. Now I express myself in a healthier way. Sometimes, now, I cry just because. I feel so much more liberated. Imagine going from a cry baby (too emotional) to a piece of ice. I was actually proud of myselfbecause I thought I was strong for going through everything without tears but it actually made a mess of me, because when I opened up finally, it was like a volcano, I erupted into a long coming depression. Not healthy to keep everything inside, I learned the hard way.

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mcd I'm lucky I have always been able to cry when necessary

I find I can handle things to a point then it's like the pressure builds sand steam needs to be let offI find a good cry kind of cleanses me Ehen I get rid of the pent up stress I can handle things again

Wise words from a friend of mine " A shared load is always lighterHow can people who care help & support you if they don't know anything is wrong I always tried to be the strong one, too

Susan

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mcd I'm lucky I have always been able to cry when necessary

I find I can handle things to a point then it's like the pressure builds sand steam needs to be let offI find a good cry kind of cleanses me Ehen I get rid of the pent up stress I can handle things again

Wise words from a friend of mine " A shared load is always lighterHow can people who care help & support you if they don't know anything is wrong I always tried to be the strong one, too

Susan

yes you are right a shared load is lighter except when people around you can't take it. My family couldn't take it so I got sick from keeping everything inside so I could spare them.

 

 

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