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Update

Finally, spring is in the air though we still have cold days with a lot of wind but it is getting nicer. No more boots and winter coat is semi retired.   On april 4th, I had a car accident that retired my lovely Hyundai Accent so now on top of shopping for a new place to live (for June 1st) we are looking for a new car. On the bright side , my condo is almost ready to put up for sale. Renovations should be done by the end of the month. Yikes.   I was not hurt in the accident but the car

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update

Hello everyone. Sorry I have been MIA. Turned out there was no surgery. All they did was take a biopsy and insert an IUD with medication. Everything went well and I am feeling better. Lately I have been having hot flashes again and headaches I see the doc tomorrow to check my thyroid meds. My oldest son decided he did not have a mother anymore. Thank God my youngest is still my loving son. So, life goes on. We are moving again. This place was not what we needed though the garage was won

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Remember me??

Hello everyone. It has been ages since I did this. I have not been on StrokeNet for a while, well chat really, I do log in every day and try to keep up with the news.   We are in the middle of moving. I am doing something I have only done once before. We are getting rid of all my old furniture (newest piece I have is 12 years old) and we are buying everything new. We are starting new. We were supposed to move into the new place Oct. 1/13. Oops! we missed it, as today is the 7th but the

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Moving

We are moving. Not where we originally thought we would move to but a better place nonetheless.   After my stroke, I moved 10 times in 10 years. I was running away...from me I think. Who knows. Now I have been here for 12 years, I liked it here but it no longer gives me pleasure.   I need a place where there is an underground garage. Too many falls on the ice in the parking lot here.   This will be such a nice move. Most of my furniture is dated. So we dont bring anything with us.

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invitation to dinner

My oldest son Marc invited me to his cottage for dinner . This happened friday july 13/12. I knew how to get to almost 3/4 of the way there so Dan my youngest met me at a restaurant where we used to stop every weekend when the kids were young. Unbelievable that I was on the same road going to my son`s cottage(summer home). When Marc had first talked about inviting me, my mom and dad and sister, he mentioned he did not know how his wife was going to take the news as she was still not comforta

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lunch with my sons (update)

I enjoyed myself immensely. It was like old times. Dan, my youngest brought his g/f since she was off work that day. We talked about when they were younger, They talked about their dad a bit. (stuff happening in his life that I didnt know about) I knew I would be at ease with Dan since we have been meeting for lunch for a few years now. I thought it might be a bit uncomfortable with Marc but it was not. Maybe because Dan and Chrys were there, it diffused any uncomfortable conversation we m

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LUNCH WITH MY 2 HANDSOME SONS

Last weekend, I was talking on the phone with Dan (youngest son). I mentioned how I would like to go to lunch with him and his brother, like old times. Well my wonderful son will make it happen. He spoke to his brother who agreed to meet us next monday. We still have to work on the logistics but it is happening. I am so excited. Slowly, very slowly, things will be as I hope, more normal, as my family is coming together. I will update next week after our lunch. I am so happy to share this

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I had a beautiful Xmas

I went to my niece`s for xmas dinner. Unfortunately my boys were not there this year but I enjoyed being with my family. We even had a toast to my brother whom we lost last xmas. I got some gifts that I was not expecting and I gave my little gifts to my family which I had not seen at xmas for 5 years until last year when we were reunited at the hospital at my brothers death bed. This year was more joyous though I know we all had a hole in our hearts where my brother used to be. In spite of all t

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Just came back from meeting with my son

I finally met with Marc. The ice is broken, it went well. Though I dont have the same positive feeling I did when I met Dan the first time, it is still something. He cant get passed the hurtful things that were said. I suppose its easier for me to forgive and forget because I am a mother. I hope with time he will get passed those aweful things that were said (both sides) Thats all I can say about it for now because it is all I know. I want to stay hopeful and positive. Who knows what the new yea

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Finally!!

The phone call, I have been waiting for. Marc, my older son just called at 5:30, we are meeting for coffee at 7, short notice but I am excited. I thought I would never see this day. I hope our first meeting goes as smoothly as my first meeting with Dan went. Thats it for now. I will let you know how it went.

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Good news!!

I was talking to my son Dan yesterday, poor guy has the flu and he was at work feeling miserable. He told me he had been talking to Marc, his brother. Marc`s first girlfriend passed away last week. Apparently that made him think of my brother who died last xmas and how life is short. It has been six years since Marc and I have not had a mother/son relationship. The good news is he asked Dan for my new number and he is supposed to call me. I know Dan has been after him to do that for a long time.

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Great news!!

I was talking to my son Dan yesterday, poor guy has the flu and he was at work feeling miserable. He told me he had been talking to Marc, his brother. Marc`s first girlfriend passed away last week. Apparently that made him think of my brother who died last xmas and how life is short. It has been six years since Marc and I have not had a mother/son relationship. The good news is he asked Dan for my new number and he is supposed to call me. I know Dan has been after him to do that for a long time.

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My first xmas dinner with family since the feud

Last xmas I decided to join the family for xmas for the first time since I have been with Andre. That was not to be. I did spend xmas with them but not what I expected. My brother went in the hospital on the 23rd and he died xmas day. This year it will be the first xmas without him. I am used to that because I have not had a xmas with him since I met Andre but the family, especially my parents will find that very hard. My niece is having the dinner this year so if I am invited I will go. Dan, my

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a funny I could not pass up

Gifts   Three sons left home, went out on their own and prospered. Getting back together, they discussed the gifts they were able to give their elderly mother.   The first said, "I built a big house for our mother."   The second said, "I sent her a Mercedes."   The third smiled and said, "I've got you both beat. You remember how mom enjoyed reading the Bible? And you know she can't see very well. So I sent her a remarkable parrot that recites the entire Bible. It took elders in the c

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I fell again

Last night after cleaning up the kitchen, I turned to walk out and at the same time noticed a burner still on so I turned around, too fast, I lost my balance and fell on my back. I was stunned for a few minutes but I didn`t think I had hurt myself. Andre heard me and came to help. I had so many falls the last 27 years but luckily never hurt myself. Lately, my knees hurt with arthritis so getting up from the floor is a lot harder than it used to be. After several tries, I could not get up and los

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update

Wow, my last entry was in February, how time flies. The warm weather is sure taking long to get here this year. I can`t wait to sit on my patio. Saturday I went to my sister and Bil`s 35th anniversary party hosted by their kids. I saw extended family and friends. I had not seen in years. It was nice but by 10pm I was ready to head home. I am not used to going out at night anymore and I was so glad to get back home. I guess Im getting old. My Dan was at the party with Chriss his g/f. It i

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I had a nice day today

I had a date for lunch with my son today. As usual, he called just before I was ready to leave to meet him. Oh no I said, you are canceling? No but can we make it dinner instead. I went to bed at 6am so I would rather dinner if you dont mind. Of course I mind but I did not say that. After lunch I was dropping in for my weekly visit with my parents. So I went there after my errands. It turned out better than expected as my Dad decided to join us. My Dad loves going out but he is pretty much

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my birthday date with my son

I am so happy. My birthday panned on 3 days this year. Wow. I was to meet my son and his girlfriend at the restaurant. Of course I was there early, I am always early. I would rather wait than make others wait for me. We were meeting at 5:30, in the middle of traffic peak. I expected that he would be late so I settled down with a coffee and did some people watching. Something I never do. I turned my phone on in case something happened that Dan could not make it. Good thinking there. I ca

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my 2011 birthday

I had a nice day on my birthday yesterday. It was just a nice relaxing day because we decided to celebrate saturday, tomorrow. We are going to watch our favorite shows (recorded earlier) and movies, then for dinner we are having take out, no cooking yay. I love cooking but its nice to get a break once in a while. My son Dan called yesterday to wish me a Happy Birthday. I am so happy he thought of it. Plus he is taking me out to dinner tonight. I am excited because I will meet his new girl

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I had a fall a few days ago too

A few days ago, I was making breakfast and like always, I work too fast as if I am in a hurry to get done because there is somewhere I have to go, which is not the case but old habits die hard. I must slow down. Anyway, making breakfast and the margarine container was too close to the heat and started melting. When I saw that, I pulled it away but it was too late. I turned around to get another container to transfer the part of the margarine that was not contaminated by the melting plastic.

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I love my son so much /2011 will be a good year for me

I cant believe it has been a week today since my little brother went into the hospital. 2 days later, Xmas day, he left us. Today was the funeral service. It was a beautiful service. He had a living will and he had planned everything to the last detail. His wife had only to follow his precise instructions. The priest told us there were 500 people present. My brother had touched so many people and all of them were present. After the service we were invited to the church basement for a glass

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RIP little brother

Some of you know my little brother was in a coma in hospital since thursday morning when he collapsed at his home. He was fighting pneumonia and thursday morning he fell in his bathroom at home. By that time he had a blood clot in his lung which caused a heart attack. He was only 54 and the youngest of 3 children. It is not fair that he went first. Please pray for his wife and my parents who have suffered a great loss. My brother and his wife had no children. It is a sad sad thing that she will

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I will see my son Dan at xmas woohoo

The last time I posted on my blog was just after Easter when Dan had once again cancelled our lunch date. Well, he is very busy as a real estate agent plus he is in a new relationship, I get to meet her xmas day, and we did meet a few times since then.   For the first time since I have been with Andre, I decided to visit my family at my sister's xmas day. Sadly Andre has opted out but I will still go and come back for dinner with my Honey. It will be nice to see everyone and I even have gi

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I hate waiting...

Well, I am still waiting for my son to call me to set a date for the lunch he cancelled on good friday. When I talk to him, usually on facebook, he says oh we will have lunch soon, I cant this week , I am very busy but the day never comes. What am I to do? If the relationship wasn't so fragile I would say something for sure but... I will take whatever crumbs he sends my way. Its better than nothing. At least we are in contact unlike mu oldest son who I have not seen in 5 years. I never in

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still waiting...

Here we are April 17 and I am waiting for Dan to reschedule our lunch together. He is very busy and I know I cant expect him to put his life on hold for me but I do wish I could see him more often. Now he tells me that he will be working outside the office next week so it will be easier for him to meet me for lunch. I cant wait.

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