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I hate school


CagedBird

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Yes I hate school. Why am I not making As? I am doing the same exact things I did last year yet I have gotten stupid this year. So what should I do? Work my butt off, stress out, and wanna die when I kiss the 4.0 goodbye? Or just keep trying and accept that I am not as smart as everyone expects me to be? I just dont understand. Finals are coming up and I am more nervous than ever because I only have an A in ONE out of my FIVE classes so far. Im worried about every single class. I havent made anything higher than a C in 2 of my hardest classes, my english teacher never gives our papers back so i have no clue how im doing in there, and for some reason my test grades keep dropping 10 points in my other class. It did not help to miss class the one day the instructor gave extra credit and too bad i couldnt study the day before test because cold medicine knocked me out unil the next morning. I feel like such a failure. Im finally done with Dracula but now I have 1 vampire project due on monday and another due when we get back from thanksgiving break. I also have a paper due when we get back. but right now I am volunteering eeryday from the time I get out of class until 6 in the evening so I can finish my community service hours. Im just so tired of this. I wish things would go back to the way they were last year. I wish I wouldve never made a 4.0 so everyone wouldnt expect so much from me. Well its 12am and I still have to study 2 subjects (5 chapters) before I get up in the morning for my 8am class. Please pray for me.

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Katrina,

 

Dear gal, you are being hard on yourself. Each year of school is harder than the year before just as it was when you were back in high school, junior high and even grade school.

 

I hear that all the time from my daughter hon. I remembered back to my college days (not that long ago but prestroke) I always experienced stress; when I did, I'd experience test anxiety as a result.

 

Relax, study, and do your best. Try NOT to cram. Cramming leads to added stress and anxiety.

 

You're always in my thoughts and prayers little one. Love you and (((hugs)))

 

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katrina,

you are going to school to LEARN. if you already knew it all you could skip the education part. i know you have to keep your grades up for your scholarship, but who said you had to do it perfectly?? like donna said, give yourself a break! getting so upset will only make learning the information that much harder.think about what you would say to someone who felt she had to to do the 4.0 thing all the time....wouldn't you counsel her to relax and be kind to herself.

it seems to me, and i hope you understand this, that you are going in a few too many directions. no one can tell you what to do or change...we can only offer our advice and prays.....it is wonderful to strive to be the best you can...but then let it go or you will create exhaustion, disappointment and pain for yourself... huggs,kathy

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Are you studying differently? Some people learn differently. By taking notes ...writing things down and then re-reading your notes. Some people learn by listening. talk into a tape recorder and then listen to the tape. Highlight the important parts of the book, go back and re-read what you highlighted.

 

Learning is not osmosis.. for most people. Are you thinking of other things in your class, and not focusing on the teacher or assignment. Maybe the excitement, newness has worn off, so it is routine, and maybe a bit boring... so your enthuiasm is gone.

 

With all the voluneering maybe you are getting overtired. After volunteering. Take time to adjust.. have some food, and get into a more calm and change gears to focus.

 

Instead of thinking of all the classesTh at once.. set your time and priority, which class or project needs more focus . Do that one first, take a short break, and then re-focus on the next project. Don't take it as a WHOLE... look at each.. one at a time. set a timer.. study for 30 minutes or an hour. When the timer goes off. Take 10 minutes.. and then onto the next. Thinking about every thing at one time is overwhelming.

 

I have been helping my husband at his shop.. When he rattled off all the things I had to compile, I wanted to sit in the corner and cry. When I made a list and tackled each section one at a time, I could cross it off my list. I could feel accomplishment. Set a routine and schedule... making sure you put time in there for eating, listening to music or ? whatever in between to give your brain time to rest and re-set for the next task

 

You need to worry about Your own expectations of yourself.. not whateverone else thinks. This is YOUR dream YOUR education .. don't dump it on someone else..

 

Ask about a tutor, or go to the professor and ask to see your paper, or ask what brought your grade down, and what you can DO to better it.

 

And you need to get Sleep, and food. to keep your body and mind in good working order.

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Katrina ~ You sound just like my daughter who got straight A's throuh her first 2 yrs. of college asnd then got a B, thaen C. Well she'll be graduating this dec.. i know she gave it her all & all. ANd I know yoou for all you've been through Katrina have given over and above your all and all. So hang in there girl, my friend. My daughter

Johanna is a go getter, first born, determined when she came out from the womb.

So hang in there my friend. We are with you. God Bless You my dear....How's

your Dad doing?

 

nancy

 

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Katrina:

 

first and foremost drop things which are nonessential like part of 5 clubs & doing too many things. again I agree with kathy you are going into college to LEARN it does not matter with you have 4.0GPA. as long as you are doing your best and learning. don't beat yourself with what others will think. trust me nobody thinks about others. everybody is so busy in themselves. nobody cares about others. I learnt this hard way. life will still go on whether you get 4.0 GPA or 3.8 GPA.

 

Asha

 

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