Im a loser, I feel crap, the pain sucks, I suck, Im depressed and just hurt the one I love, the meds dont work, the drs give the run around, they dont give a crap, I cant stand it. Everyday I sit and type the spelling does not get better, the typing does not get easier or get better. It seems all I do is fail. No Im good at hurting my wife. Shes a great person and Im a loser. Its hard to be happy or positive when whatever you is a major ordeal and you suck at it. Ask me a question but wait for the answer Im sure Im wrong. The night is falling I hope my prayers are answered.