Fufillment
Fufillment. This word has been bouncing around my head, weaving itself in and out of my thoughts today. My thoughts are not of the upbeat positive quality. I think I should stay away from reading philosphy and bits of quantum mechanics and quantum physics before 8 in the morning. It is too heavy and overtaxed the damaged brain I have. That is the only excuse I can find for a sad dark mood today.
I'm impatient today too. I can't use any of my tricks to ignore and not think about the demise of my marriage. I think it is catching up to me, the denial and ignoring what is bothering me. I guess it is time to feel the pain and just grieve the loss. Have a good cry. I don't know why I've been lying to myself that I am fine, I can handle it.
Well talk about veering off the cliff on my original thought. I'll have to tackle fufillment another time!
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