When the botox wears off
Well first I would like to thank everyone for your uplifting comments to my last blog/post. It really meant a lot to see you all celebrating with me over my small accomplishments. but now the celebration is over. Instead of 2 more weeks of physical therapy, I got 2 more sessions. I know I reached all of my goals in pt but I really can't tell. My main goals were to go up and down stairs without using the handrail, strengthen my leg and foot enough to wear sandals, and remember to swing my arm when walking without losing my balance. Well I still grab hold to the rail just out of habit when I take the stairs, I never got the chance to practice walking with sandals because I didn't have any to bring in that would fit my foot without falling off without the brace. My pt said I can still walk short distances wearing sandals without the brace but I don't want to chance it. I do have a better wrist support but since I can't see my left arm I always forget to swing it while walking. I just feel like I took a small step forward with therapy and a giant step back. I have home exercises but they are either too risky to do them by myself or just seem too pointless to make a difference.
I named this blog after the botox wears off because that's exactly how I feel. Everything is over. My wrist is so stiff now I can barely stretch it for exercises, no more therapy, and worst of all my progress is over. That is what happens when the botox wears off. My doc said it did help this time but the only way I can get more therapy is to either get more botox or wait until next year so he can send me somewhere else. I just don't want to get more botox because it is too painful. I asked about some of the technology I have heard about to help my left side but the doc said all of those only work for people who just had a stroke recently. I just feel like there is no hope for me. I didn't ask for this. Well my right arm is getting super tired and sore from typing so I will end this.