Overwhelmed and wondering if I am headed for a burnout
First I want to appologize to you nice ladies here If I start sounding like a male chovinest pig but I was raised in the old ways that a man shouldn't show his feelings. I know you ladies think that is silly maybe but it is just how I was raised by my dad and can't seem to change
Seems like the last week or so that I have been getting more and more depressed. I know part of it is my bipolar disorder. I don't have Insurance and can't afford the meds I need to control it. I know alot of the depression is coming from all the stress.
We live on my wife's ssdi and we just can't afford to hire help. Once in awhile I can get my teenage daughter to help some but most of the work is on my shoulders. I still do ok taking care of my wife and father in law but lately that is about it.
My mind stays in a constant state or worry over finances. Worrying about how we are going to pay our bills and keep food on the table. Granted we do get food stamps. I go to every food pantry in the county every month but there give aways are drying up from the lack of donations due to this bad economy.
The house has gone to pot. Looks like I haven't cleaned in a month of sundays. I know it is part of my job to take care of the house but my energy levels are drained. I have been trying to motivate myself with little to no success.
I couldn't tell any of you the last time I had any kind of fun or had a good laugh. Fred if you read this keep posting on the humor board maybe one day you will give me that laugh I desperatly need. You have come close to succeding a few times.
I am sorry for my rambling and going all over the place. Seems like anymore you my new found friends are the only ones I have to talk to. I do appreciate each and everyone of you that I have made friends with and those yet to become. Thank you all for letting me ramble.