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Am I biting off more than I can chew

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I'm Back at last

Seems like forever since I last got to log on which it has. Had pc problems that finally are fixed. Modern technology, wonderful when it is working right but a nightmare when it doesn't.   Everyone here is fine. Hope to see all my friends that I have missed tomorrow nite in chat.

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Guess it is about time

Didn't realize how long it has been since I last bloged. I have been guilty I guess of doing a lot of lurking as of late.   Well all seems to quieting down here at long last. As we approach Thanksgiving day, I look back at was has been a real ruff year for us. Seems like after last Thanksgiving everything went down hill. It was the last time I would have any memorable activities with my father in law. Last Thanksgiving mother nature gave us a beautiful day weather wise. My father in law had b

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Home again at last

Finally I have returned early this morning. I want to thank all of you for your prayers and support while I was gone.   Now it is just a matter of recovery from the surgery and rebuilding my strength and stamina. Then learn my limitations and what electrical devices I have to avoid or how far to keep them away from where the defibulator is at in my chest. Next few weeks should be interesting.

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The Doctor called for this change

Well gang I though I would have Tuesday to pack and get ready to leave Wed to have my surgery. Well late this afternoon we heard from the Doctor who will be implanting the defibulator and he moved the surgery up one day. No big deal. Just hate the fact that I thought I would make it to caregiver chat tomorrow but guess I will have to miss it.   Hopefully Rose will keep you all updated again. Don't worry too much Kitty's mom and niece will be around some to help take care of Kitty this time.

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Finally accepting change

Seems like ever since I came home from having the heart catherazation, I been doing a lot of thinking and realizing that life for me has once more changed. I recokon that life changes are just another part of the circle of life.   First change was when Rose was born with a double aortic arch, which was corrected before she was a year old. Her pediatrician would not allow day care and at the time Kitty made more money than I did so I came home and learned all about what you stay home moms alre

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Summer is gone

Just thinking the last few days how a lot has changed this past summer. Over the past years 75% or better of the yard work and other projects were mine to accomplish. Daddy in law was here to supervise me and just chew the fat with. I had my health and could go for hours working inside or out. I had the habbit of when I saw my father in law doing some work he shouldn't of dropping what I was doing and do the job for him.   This past summer all that changed. Daddy in law is gone. Granted he is

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I am back at last

Well I had the heart catherazation and then the doctor in Charleston ordered the non stress stress test. The test results showed some blockage but not enough for stents or bypass. However the did show that my heart is extremely week. I have to return to Charleston in a few weeks to have a defibulator installed. Personally I can't understand why they couldn't have been while I was there.   I wont to thank all of you for your prayers and support.   guess I will see you all Tuesday night in ca

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Just a few more days to wait

Guess you could say the countdown for me is on now. Tuesday I see the doctor 2 hours away and than wed face the heart catherazation. I hope and pray it will turn out an easy fix for my heart problems. But what ever is needed to be done I will do it to get my health back.   I know I have a great bunch of friends and extended family members here on stroke net that are and will be praying and pulling for me to get better. I know I must do this so I can take care of kitty and rose.   Hopefully

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What happened to the old ways

A few weeks ago I found a radio site that has a station that plays the old radio shows my parents listened to when they were young, like the Shadow Knows. Lately it has got me thinking where did the old ways go to.   I remember a day, like I figure a lot of you do, when if you needed help you could count on friends and family to come to the rescue without worrying about what was in it for them. Now you can't hardly count on any one unless they are compensated for there time.   Just a good ex

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Murphy's Law is alive and well here

The saying of murphy's law that says if anything can go wrong it will, is going full power here. Since my blog a little while back about what I thought was a ruptured spleen things have continued to go down hill. Turns out wasn't my spleen that ruptured but a bleeder in my stomach along with some gall stones and an infected colon. But no insurance all the hospital did for me was to stabalize me and discharge me still wounded.   Since that time, as most of you know my father in law passed away.

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One caregiver forced to care for self a few days

When Kitty's 21 year old nephew has a bad day, I seem to become his favorite target to take it out on. I am not much of a fighter and he knows it. His favorite way of getting me is through assualt. Well a little over a week ago, he came at me again. Called the law on him and their attitude was to take pictures of the visable wounds and come to the station to file a report. Well there were no visable wounds so I was out of luck. Don't get me wrong, I got hurt, but my stupid macho male ego just we

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Am I the only one here

I don't intend to sound sexest, nor do I intend to offend any of you nice ladies. Please forgive me if I should come across that way this time around.   I have been surfing the web, just out of curiosity, on and off today looking for support sites for caregivers in general. Especially for a site for male caregivers. I know from reading that the role of caregiving is mostly dominated by females. Also the role of male caregivers is rising there still isn't really anything out there for us as mal

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A male caregiver's prospective on caregiving

Last night during the caregiver support chat, a young lady stroke survivor came into the room. Correct me if I misunderstood her ladies, but I believe she was looking for answers as to why her husband wasn't showing any emotions. There was only 2 of us male caregivers amongst all you nice ladies in there. I tried to help as I could. Per Debbie's suggestion and thinking about it all night I decieded to try and blog about the subject. Don't know that it will help or not but I will give it a try an

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Overwhelmed and wondering if I am headed for a burnout

First I want to appologize to you nice ladies here If I start sounding like a male chovinest pig but I was raised in the old ways that a man shouldn't show his feelings. I know you ladies think that is silly maybe but it is just how I was raised by my dad and can't seem to change   Seems like the last week or so that I have been getting more and more depressed. I know part of it is my bipolar disorder. I don't have Insurance and can't afford the meds I need to control it. I know alot of the de

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Am I biting off more than I can chew

Not sure about this blogging but here goes nothing.   I wasn't too sure where to post this in the forms so I figured to try a blog for the first time in my life.   My wife Kitty is a 10 year stroke survivor. We currently are living on her ssdi, which most of you know there isn't any money to live on there. Now with the cost of living sky rocketing we are having to look for things to cut out that we can live without. (not that we have much now).   One place I am strongly considering, and I

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