the antidepressant seems to be working for Dan.... OH GOD I pray it does... I just want a life.. and i believe Dan does to although he isent sure how to accept himself........ but this med ( zoloft) seems to be working ...... and having michel here has been very valuable.......right now they are cuddleing LOL ( really we have a dual adjustable bed and michel is in the bed all the way up as is dan and they are watching a movie...it is comical but it brings a smile to my face....Michel was my daughter erikas boyfriend in high school.. they broke up a few years ago but since the stroke michel has come back into all our lives, yep looks like him and erika are getting back together..... Michel has always been a pseudo son to us..... i speak to him as i do my own , luckily at age 22 now he doesent need discipline, but he can be a mouth.... he is very protective of dan...... dan has been going out and playing blackjack.... one of his only recreations that michel discovered and dans speech lady is on board with it... it covers a lot of area, thinking, engaging, socialization... we do not play when big timers are playing .. dan only plays dollar chips , and if there are serious gamblers we dont play, so with michels assistance i- we have spent more time in a bar in the last month than we have our entire marriage.... we never were party people and maybe went to a bar once a year at the most.. and when the kids were little never.. couldnt afford a babysitter for 4 kids.... and sleep and work were the priorities... now i am working on talking with dan about weston-- and how important he is to me.. and how he needs to tolerate him -- he is ours.. and will grow out of the whining that 2 yr olds do... so we are doing well.... and man i hope i havent written this to soon and put my foot into my mouth, and will be having a foot sandwich in a few days ( or hours) never know, things with dan change so quick.... thanks everyone for all you support and kindness........... Nancyl