We will be taking Cayden to Florida next month depending on how my doctors apt goes on monday, I have been having trouble catching my breath and I even quit smoking for the most part. Please pray that my trouble breathing is just my new meds they put me on and not anything more serious. Cayden is freaking out that when he wakes up tomorrow or any other day I will be dead. It is taking us longer and longer to put him to sleep like tonight it took me almost 2 hours to get him to go to sleep. I let him tell me how he felt and we talked about dying and being in heaven and he told me its ok if God has to take mommy home as long as God sends mommy back to earth as his very own angel. I told him if I were to die before he grew up I would ask God to send me down as his angel. Cayden then ask me how I prayed when I died. So it took us a half hour to talk about that and how if I died then I would see God and what surprised me was he asked me if God was "cloned" where did he pick that up? I told him I was not God and I didnt know everything and he said I did know everything down on earth and named all the things I did know and said "see mom you do know everything" Kids are so cute arent they. I will hate to see him turn into a teenager where it goes from me knowing everything to me knowing absolutely nothing and him knowing everything. I am going through that right now with my daughter.

Well I best get off here and I will let all know how things go after mondays apt.