surviving---
i have to say surviving because i am afraid to say we are doing G--D ... cant say it or write it .. might jinx it... Dan slips in and out of his moods, and i can deal with the in and out.. it is the staying in a mood ( always seemed to be bad ) that would get to me...
It was sad to watch him with our grandson yesterday - weston just wanted a hug.. and dan kept pushing him away.. the poor little guy just wanted a hug from his "umpa" ... but dan wasent in the mood to give him any attention... That is so heart breaking.. dan was so excited prestroke when april told us of her pregnancy.. He was even gonna take care of the baby.. so when he had the stroke - she didnt even have daycare lined up... so a loss of the stroke... no ability to enjoy the grandchild, and the grandchild of course just doesent understand... the hurt look on his face yesterday ...
Dans speech lady is quitting... that is so sad.. she has been the best resource for me for dans "neurological" issues... but she is moving on to greener pastures . Dan wont see anyone once she leaves... he had a great relationship with her. I know i can call her anytime, still. But she will switch her focus from working with older people with issues like strokes to working with children.. so after awhile she will lose her interest as she focuses on children... which is awesome for the kids -- she is a fabulous therapist... but dan is tired of all the fuss of therapy so his time was coming to a end either way...
our cars transmission went out... and now we have a loaner - impala- not stroke friendly at all..... i plan to trade the acadia for a toyota van in the next few months - watching our finances play out.. but the acadia has just been a lemon. i have extended warranty ( thank goodness) but it is in and out of the shop and that in itself is annoying.. i'm just gonna stick with my toyota brand from here on out.
my son came home to see his dad. he flew up and will drive the motor home back to MNPLS and sell it for me and dan. we really wont utalize it ... Fred - when we make it to TX (and we will) - we will fly ...
So we are moving into a sort of continuum . The port dan had put in is still doing well, no complications. maybe we wont ever need it for the purpose of hyderation - just blood draws... but i wouldnt put any money on that bet- that is just wishful thinking... we will be packing and cleaning around here - getting ready to go to NY to see Ray and Colleen ... since i have kids traveling with us this time, we will have help ( both colleen and I will) and maybe we can have a little bit of freedom... but again not a bet i would put money on... well good day - everyone have a good day.. I hope... Nancyl
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