Torture
I have been up since 3am. I did not fall asleep until 12am. I got in bed at 9:30 but it took me forever to get to sleep because I was trying to fall asleep wearing the splint. I remember taking it off before I finally fell asleep.) I had usual weird dreams but suddenly as I was laying on my back, I felt like I couldnt move. I began to panic and scream trying as hard as I could to move my body.
Finally I woke up and went to the bathroom. I cant remember the dreams. I really wish I could because I remember they felt so real and it was like I knew something bad was about to happen.
Was this just sleep paralysis? Was it a night terror? Was is a nocturnal seizure? I am very thankful I was delivered from seizures after the surgeries but these nocturnal seizures are the worst. When I was a kid I just got a headache, felt nauseous, spit til I thought I was going to throw up, and it was over. Now the memory loss, convulsions, soreness, etc is just so much worse. Its like Im possesed by a demon or something.
I just cant figure out what is triggering it. I ate 3 meals yesterday, took my medicine, and was not sleep deprived. I know some of you said it could be diet and i know lack of sleep and stress can trigger parasomnia but like I said in my last post I see no correlation between my diet and the seizures and I've been trying to go to sleep before 12 and not taking daytime naps because it seemed like staying up late/waking up early and taking a nap had a correlation with the nighttime seizures. The only thing that has changed about my diet is I have not eaten meat (only seafood) in over a year so I guess I could have some kind of vitamin or protein deficiency? I really think I need a sleep study/ EEG though. If I were just having seizures I would be worried but since they only happen at night or as soon as I wake up (knock on wood) I cant help but think they have something to do with my sleep. The ONLY correlation Ive noticed is the nighttime seizures happen when Ive laid in bed all day or took a nap. I cant remember having one on nights after I've been out all day. But I primarily remember them happening on days when I dont leave the house and just lay in bed all day (like yesterday)
I just dont understand why this crap did not start until I bought my dream car, moved out on my own, and started working my first permanent job. What did I do to deserve this? Like my life wasnt already difficult enough. Well guess I need to get ready for work before I accidentally fall back asleep and have another episode. Im so tired now
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