Things were going pretty good. Today I went to the gym and signed up for a membership. Its a gym that the hospital owns so they also have OTs PTs and personal trainers. I especially like that they offer group classes like chair yoga and senior exercise classes so it will be easier for me to keep up with the group. I was having a good day. I treated myself to a restaurant I've never been to for lunch then came home to finish reading a business book.

and thats when it happened. as i was laying down reading I felt my left arm start to rise up. I tried to push it back down but I knew it was a seizure. I tried to put my book down but tore the page. I tried to yell for help but I guess I was just thinking it and could not talk. It felt like I was dreaming while I was sleep. I was talking to strangers and just random things happening.

Then I realized I was sitting on my bed crying hysterically and my dad and brother were talking to me. I didn't know what was going on and I was terrified. I kept saying "They're going to take my license" which I always say once I realize I've had a seizure. My dad put my shoes on me and decided to take me to the emergency room because my dad says I was staring and my eyes were really wide plus I was really out of it.

Once we got to the emergency room parking lot I started to remember what I wrote in the last paragraph plus the parking lot was full so we went back home. but my dad told me more. He said I walked into the the kitchen and he seen me walking past his room but I was walking strange. Then he heard a boom and he found me laying on the kitchen floor just staring into space and not responding. He said its like I was sleep walking. I don't understand how I got to the kitchen. It is on the other side of the house and I had to step down a step from my hallway then up a step into the kitchen. How did I do all of this without wearing my brace and no memory of it? I guess my dad helped me back to my room. The last time I fell without my brace when I was 14, I sprained my ankle. Im glad I did not sprain it today. My left side is sore but my headache is going away,

My dad does not think I had a seizure and none of the neurologist or ER doctors think what Im having are seizures. I just wish I knew what it was. Now I feel scared to drive, work out at the gym, and take on the responsibility of starting a business which was my only hope after quitting my job. I just dont understand