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I don't know what is going on but my left side (my stroke side) is really bothering me. Im trying to write this blog but I cant seem to get comfortable. In the past, my left side never really bothered me and if it did, I would just take the baclofen or do some stretches. Now Im so scared because my left arm feeling weird is my only warning that the seizure is happening. Im constantly moving my left arm now and today my left leg was having crazy spasms just shaking like crazy when I would stand. The back of my thighs aren't sore anymore but my left knee hurts when i walk with my brace and my left ankle hurts when I walk without it. My arm is just sore constantly. I don't know if this is from laying in bed for 5 days during the EEG or from my body going crazy during the seizures. I hope I feel better soon.


I had 2 panic attacks since I been home. Im scared to even talk about them. As Im typing Im laying on my left side because Im scared if I lay on my back, my left side will start jerking. I took my clonazepam so I dont know why I have so much anxiety. It just feels like my left side fell asleep and is waking back up. That tingly feeling reminds me of a seizure and although I know Im not going to have one, I feel like I need to be cautious so I have time to let someone know. It is a sucky feeling. Im just ready to go to sleep.


I cant remember what I wrote in my last blog. My doctor said my dizziness could be coming from my low blood pressure. One night it was only 80 something over 40 something. So I guess those random flashes of dizziness are the blood pressure. I had a panic attack the other day and I walked into the living room yelling for my dad. I just kept telling him I was scared. Then it was over. I had another one the following day. I was laying here trying to focus on tv but something just like took control of me. It felt like I was dreaming. I threw myself on my bed the same way I had thrown myself on the couch in the living room the day before. I yelled for my brother and he stood in my room til I felt normal again. I remember saying "I dont know whats happening."


Im absolutely positively sure Im not going to have a seizure again. I just wish I could convince my body and brain to go back to how it was pre-EEG. I moved my stuff in my apartment today and Im going to get things situated this week. (Pictures coming soon.) Im glad Im 5 minutes away from my bestfriend (my cousin) and my grandma and Im about 10-15 minutes away from my dad. I have a 2 bedroom so I know my dad is going to be staying with me and he wants me to stay home a lot. I just hate this bedroom. I hate laying on this bed looking at these walls. so many bad memories not only of seizures, but of high school, depression, etc. Im looking forward to having my own place again where I can sit up on my couch and watch tv, cook, etc. Im not worried about the seizures anymore so I hope the psychiatrist and therapist can give me some advice for this anxiety/panic and hopefully this soreness/tingliness in my left side will go away with time.


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Print this to show your therapist and Dr. and ask if it could help you.


the soreness and tingling could be caused by the anxiety itself and the endorphins and enzymes that flood the muscles during an attack, but I hope this helps.


Progressive Muscle Relaxation (PMR)


Progressive muscle relaxation is a systematic technique for achieving a deep state of relaxation. It was developed by Dr. Edmund Jacobson more than fifty years ago. Dr. Jacobson discovered that a muscle could be relaxed by first tensing it for a few seconds and then releasing it. Tensing and releasing various muscle groups throughout the body produced a deep state of relaxation, which Dr. Jacobson found capable of relieving a variety of conditions, from high blood pressure to ulcerative colitis.


In his original book, Progressive Relaxation, Dr. Jacobson developed a serious of 200 different muscle relaxation exercises and a training program that took months to complete. More recently the system has been abbreviated to 15-20 basic exercises, which have been found to be just as effective, if practiced regularly, as the original more elaborate system.


Progressive muscle relaxation is especially helpful for people whose anxiety is strongly associated with muscle tension. This is what often leads you to say that you are "uptight" or "tense". You may experience chronic tightness in your shoulders and neck, which can be effectively relieved by practicing progressive muscle relaxation. Other symptoms that respond well to progressive muscle relaxation include tension headaches, backaches, tightness in the jaw, tightness around the eyes, muscle spasms, high blood pressure, and insomnia. If you are troubled by raching thoughts, you may find that systematically relaxing your muscles tends to help slow down your mind. Dr. Jacobson himself once said, 'An anxious mind cannot exist in a relaxed body."


The immediate effects of progressive muscle relaxation include all the benefits of the relaxation response described earlier and long term effects of regular practice include...


* A decrease in general anxiety

* A decrease in anticipatory anxiety related to phobias

* Reduction in the frequency and duration of panic attacks

* Improved ability to face phobic situations through graded exposure

* Improved concentration

* An increased sense of control over moods

* Increased self esteem

* Increased spontaneity and creativity



Guidelines for Practicing Progressive Muscle Relaxation (PMR)


The following guidelines will help you mad the most use of progressive muscle relaxation. They are also applicable to any form of deep relaxation you undertake to practice regularly, including guided visualization and meditation.


1. Practice at least 20 minutes a day. Two 20 minute periods are preferable. Once a day is mandatory for obtaining generalization effects. (You may want to begin your practice with 30 minute periods. As you gain skill in relaxation techniques you will notice that the amount of time you need to experience the relaxation response will decrease)


2. Find a quiet location to practice where you won't be distracted. Don't permit the phone to ring while you're practicing. Unse a fan or air conditioner to blot out background noise if necessary.


3. Practice at regular times. On awaking, before retiring, or before meals are generally the best times. A consistent daily relaxation routine will increase the likelihood of generalization effects.


4. Practice on an empty stomach. Food digestion after meals will tend to disrupt the deep relaxation.


5. Assume a comfortable position. Your entire body, including your head, should be supported. Lying down on a sofa or bed or sitting in a reclining chair are ways of supporting your body most completely. (When lying down, you may want to place a pillow beneath your knees for further support) Sitting up is preferable to lying down if you are feeling tired and sleepy It's advantageous to experience the full depth of the relaxation response consciously without falling asleep.


6. Loosen any tight garments and take off shoes, watch, glasses, contact lenses, jewelry and so on.


7. Make a decision not to worry about anything. Give yourself permission to put aside the concerns of the day. Allow taking care of yourself and having peace of mind to take precedence over any of your worries. (Success with relaxation depends on giving peace of mind high priority in your overall scheme of values)


8. Assume a passive, detached attitude. This is probably the most important element. You want to adopt a "let it happen" attitude and be free of any worry about how well you're performing the technique. Do not try to relax. Do not try to control your body. Do not judge your performance. The point is to let go.


Progressive Muscle Relaxation Technique


Progressive muscle relaxation technique involves tensing and relaxing, in succession, sixteen different muscle groups of the body. The idea is to tense the muscles hard (not so hard that you strain, however) for about 10 seconds, and then let go of it suddenly. You then give yourself 15-20 seconds to relax, noticing how the muscle group feels when relaxed in contrast to how it felt when tensed, before going on to the next group of muscles.


Some may benefit from saying to themselves, "I am relaxing" "letting go", "Let the tension flow away" or any other relaxing phrase during each relaxation period between successive muscle groups. Maintain focus of your muscles and if your attention wanders, bring it back to the particular muscle group you're working on. The guidelines below decribe the progressive muscle relaxation in detail.


* Make sure you are in a setting that is quiet and comfortable

* When you tense a certain muscle group, do so vigorously, without straining for 7-10 seconds.

* Concentrate on what is happening. Feel the build up of tension in each particular muscle group.

* When you release the muscles, do so abruptly, and then relax for at least 15-20 seconds.

* Allow all the other muscles in your body to remain relaxed, as far as possible while working on a particular muscle group.

* Tense and relax each muscle group once. If a particular area feels especiallytight, you can tense and relax it tow or three more times, waiting 15-20 seconds between each cycle.


1. To begin, take three deep abdominal breathes, exhaling slowly each time. As you exhale, imagine the tension throughout your body begins to flow away.


2. Clench your fists. Hold for 7-10 seconds and then release for 15-20 seconds. Use these same time intervals for all other muscle groups.


3.Tighten your bicepts by drawing your forearms up toward your shoulders and "making a muscle" with both arms. Hold... then relax.


4. Tighten your triceps by extending your arms out straight and locking your elbows. Hold... then relax.


5.Tense the muscles in your forehead by raising your eyebrows as far as you can. hold... and relax. Imagine your forehead muscles becoming smooth and limp as they relax.


6. Tense the muscles around your eyes by clenching your eyelids tightly shut. Hold... and relax.


7. Tighten your jaws by opening your mouth so widely that you stretch the muscles around the hinges of your jaw. hold and relax. Let your lips part and allow your jaw to hang loose.


8. Tighten the muscles in the back of your neck by pulling your head way back as if you ere going to touch yourhead to your back... (be gentle with this muscle group to avoid injury). Focus only on tensing the muscles in your neck. Hold... and relax.


9. Take a few deep breaths and tun into the weight of your head sinking into whatever surface it is resting on.


10. Tighten your shoulders by raising the up as if you were going to touch your ears. Hold... relax


11. Tighten the muscles around your shoulder blades by pushing your shoulder blades back as if you were going to touch them together. Hold the tension in your shoulder blades and then relax. Since this area is often especially tense, you might want to repeat the tense-relax sequence twice.


12. Tighten the muscles in your chest by taking in a deep breath. Hold for up to 10 seconds and then release slowly. Imagine the tension in your chest flowing away with the exhalation.


13. Tighten your stomach muscles by sucking your stomach in. Hold, and then release.


14. Tighten your lower back by arching up. (you may omit this exercise if you have lower back pain) Hold and release


15. Tighten your buttocks by pulliing them together. Hold and relax.


16. Squeeze the muscles in your thighs all the way down to your knees. You will probably have to tighten your hips along with your thighs, since the thigh muscles attach at the pelvis. Hold and then release.


17. Tighten your calf muscles by pulling your toes toward you. (flex carefully to avoid cramps). Hold... then relax.


18. Tighten your feet by curling your toes downward. Hold... then relax.


19. Mentally scan your body for any residual tension. If a particular body part remains tense, repeat one or two more tense-relax cycles for that group of muscles.


20. Now imagine a wave of relaxation slowly spreading throughout your body, starting at your head and gradually spreading down to your toes.


The entire muscle relaxation sequence should take you 20-30 minutes the first time. With each practice you may decrease the time to 15-20 minutes. You may want to record the above exercises on an audio cassette to expedite your early practice sessions.




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I wonder if you may have arthritis in your knees and arms?? I o and it runs in my family and among many black families I know about. Glad you are feeling better these days!!

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Jamie: I am going to print this out. I just sat here reading and trying to do the steps, for just a few minutes. Just loosened me right up. LOL. Everyone should try this. thank you

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when I first tried it, I never got through the whole exercise. I kept falling asleep half way through! The good thing is that after doing this routinely for a while, you find you handle stress much better even without the exercise. And after years of taking anxiety meds, I was able to go off them.

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