Yesterday was a repeat of Friday. No attacks at all awake and asleep! Thank God I got a break. I noticed yesterday I did not drink any water. I only drank soda. I started to wonder if maybe my blood sugar is low. Before I found out I had AVM, when I was a kid my doctor thought I was hypoglycemic. I looked up the symptoms of hypoglycemia and I have every single one of them: (confusion, dizziness, headaches, feeling shaky, irritability, pounding heart, racing pulse, trembling, anxiety).

I hardly eat a lot of sugars. I only drink water. After I became a vegetarian 2 years ago, not only did I stop eating meat but I also stopped eating a lot of sweets. Since I was eating vegetables a lot, I didn't really desire dessert and I stopped drinking sodas. The main beverages I have in my refrigerator now are bottles of water. I rarely drink my sprites (which is the only soda I drink) and I dont buy juice. After I moved back home and started having more seizures I actually became afraid to eat sweets because i didnt want them to make me feel all jittery and since I had not drank sodas for so long I was afraid the caffeine from a coke or cup of coffee would be too much.

I do believe I was having panic attacks during the times I was having seizures but since I no longer have seizures, it just doesnt make sense to me to explain these random fits as panic attacks. My hematologist did not check my blood sugar when I went a few months ago. I had my blood sugar checked when I seen the doctor in Charlotte but so much has changed since then. My cousin just found out she is pregnant and was also diagnosed with hypoglycemia. I read that an imbalance in hormones can cause hypoglycemia and as you all know I have been on hormones (birth control) which has stopped the seizures. I was right about the birth control helping my seizures. Hopefully I am right about this and can finally get some effective treatment.

I havent eaten anything since Monday evening and I cannot eat anything until Thursday afternoon after my colonoscopy. I pray that everything goes well. I pray that I dont have a seizure from the anesthesia. and i pray that I dont have anymore attacks from anxiety about the whole ordeal and I pray I dont react badly at all. Im going to continue staying at my dad's house the next few days so I wont be alone in case anything happens. I will update you guys.