I made it through the week. I finished my discipleship class last Wednesday so I was kind of worried about what I would do this week. This was my first week since moving here by myself with absolutely nothing planned, no church, no appointments, no therapy. I met with my pastor last Thursday for counseling. It went better than I expected. She assured me that it is okay to just rest and not pray for the same stuff over and over everyday. She assured me that everyone's relationship with God is different and I do not have to work for God's love and mercy. She actually challenged me to find 5 fun things to do that don't involve church.

So Friday night I stepped out of my comfort zone and went bowling with my cousin. Her house and the bowling alley is pretty close so I was not too worried about driving home after taking my medicine. I came in last place but I still enjoyed just getting out and doing something different.

Sunday instead of going to church, I went to visit my dad and he cooked me dinner. I took a walk around the neighborhood. I thought about so much. I used to walk around the neighborhood when I was depressed, when I just wanted to run away. But on Sunday I chose to walk around and meditate on how far I've come.

Tuesday was my favorite day. I babysat my 5 year old niece for a couple hours. We played with barbies then walked to the park. I sat on a bench and talked to a stranger as I took pictures of my niece on the playground. When we got back to my apartment, we watched a movie until she fell asleep.

Yesterday I tried to go see a movie but they were not playing anything good. I was still proud of myself for just being spontaneous and not being afraid to drive to the atm, the theatre, and back. My cousin wanted some krispy kreme doughnuts which is also 5 minutes from her house so after she got off work, I drove us there and we talked for a little bit.

I thought I wasnt going to have anything to do this week but I ended up going somewhere everyday. I found another job opportunity. My church is hiring an administrative assistant and the pastor I talked to last week said that I could use her as a reference. The church closed at noon yesterday by the time I got there and is closed on Fridays but I definitely plan to turn in my application on Monday.

Oh yeah I finally got my blood work back. Everything was normal but my doctor still wants me to have my heart checked. Tomorrow I see my therapist and I have nothing but great things to share with her My oldest brother's son is having a birthday party tomorrow (I have 10 nieces and nephews, so many birthdays!) so I might go to that. It feels so good to be sleeping good, living good, and not letting a couple seconds of dizziness a few times a week ruin my life. Im getting better