Katrina, look at how many have viewed your blogs not how many have commented as a lot of people just don't know what to say.  My blog is "public' so you don't have to be a member here to view it, so many people read them I think by the title. like they read newspaper headlines,whether they read them and understand them I don't know.

I hope you get the help you need.  Do you have a photo album or pictures of some of the good times in your life on some other media?  In my first year as a widow when my thoughts ran away with me as yours do I sometimes just sat and looked at a photo of our good times and meditated on that day, the feel of the sun, the sound of the sea etc.That kind of meditation works for me.

Remember many people are thinking of you, praying for you and you are loved and supported here.

Sue.

I like Sue actually " Get what you are trying to say" -- since the onset of my own panic attacks, i understand a bit more… however mine are different than yours - for now--  but I can pretty clearly see what and how they began - no reason what so ever - they just do… mine seems to be constant and meds have not helped … I wish , although in honesty I have only tried 2 - I am hopeful one will work in the future. We are starting at the bottom and working our way up…. so far this med-- Buspar is NOT helping… but it is early in the game …. hang tough…you are not alone… 

Hi Katrina, I want you to know I read every one of your blogs.  I don't comment because I am a caregiver not a survivor, but I do get some understanding to the anxieties of the stroke survivor and it helps me understand my mom. 

I do want to say I think you are an amazing, articulate person.  You write beautifully as your words flow from sentence to sentence, paragraph to paragraph. (ever consider a career in writing?)

Stay strong and please keep blogging...(we do read them.)

Heidi

Thanks I just wanted to let you guys know I was not upset or anything that I haven't had a lot of comments lately. It's just if I make a lot of entries in a short amount of time, Im not sure who got a chance to read my last entry so I don't know whether to repeat some of the information I mentioned before or not. just trying to make sure you guys who do read can follow along when I write a new entry every other day. I used to only write a couple times a month if that when I was busy with life and my condition was pretty much the same. but lately my mind has been on overload and I feel the need to write about everything so I can remember.

Katrina :

In my initial days I used to write everyday blog. I felt blogging was mainly for me, it was therapeutic for my soul & when I got comments it felt great. though I always felt writing happy blog doubled my happiness since I got to relive again in my blog & in case of sad blog I got support from my friends. don't let what others think or comment let it bother you

Asha