So I had a seizure on the 4th of July…it was complex partial. Scarey as you know what. It started by feeling light headed then it made me twitch like every where i would look it would "flash". I was trying to lay my head down on the counter close my eyes. But the twitching wouldn't let me…. I did manage to say to my sister I think i am having a seizure. then my head shot back and i couldn't breathe for just a moment - emily was hollering for a friend to help her . They unplugged the neon light above me ( it wasn't really in my field of vision ) but then i came out of it and said I am OK. Relief on everyones face. Embarrassment for me. Then I got super tired so my sister went and got the car and I went to my other sisters house ( we were in our hometown for 4th of july - school reunion.) and laid down. a few hours later I went back to the scene of the crime ( lol)… So i come away with - was it to hot ? - it very warm and humid.. Was it part of the meds I take nortriptinline, lamictal, serequel, and kolonopin and setraline ?? not of them in particularly high doses… and then again it can be the depression?
There was a neon light hanging above me flashing but it wasn't in my line of vision? was I just over stimulated?
Heck I don't know and I imagine I never will. I guess I got a bit of ECT therapy -- which i have read a bit on with my depression and all. Either way , it is what it is. I did not take dan out - it was way to hot, so sadly he spent the 4th in the nursing home…mostly alone although the kids did visit him….. that like everything is nothing I can do about unless I sacrifice my day.. But i am getting to be a bit selfish, and had to choose.. I am learning to start to choose me. I think I have no choice - if i continue to choose dan , most assuredly I won't be long for this world. well Dan is actually doing OK at the home… As my daughter says we don't have to take all the days - we can just take the good ones.. and now when dan leaves with us he happy to go do what ever.. still I feel bad. but it is what it is…. and if i coulda changed it , it would be changed….nancyl