So sorry you are having a blue day.You have so many worries at the moment so that doesn't help.  Hope you can find something to lift your spirits.Sit in the sun for a while if you can, that always helps me.

Punch :

after my stroke I dealt with depression & I felt depression worst than my stroke. are you taking any antidepressants. I initially resisted them, but taking them helped me big time, it allowed me to look at the sunshine beyond clouds. though I feel along with those meds having routine, exercise & reading good spiritual books all help me deal with my post stroke life . I was able to wean myself off antidepressant pills as soon as I found little bit control on my life. I found blogging chatting with other survivors all very therapeutic for my soul. hope to see you around often too.

Asha

I am not on any antidepressant pills at the moment.  I am on so many other pills and not sure about taking another one yet.  Me an medicine are not great friends right now.  I was on Paxil as a teenager so I am not opposed to taking it, just weary of drugs. Paxil gave me a nervous tick that I wish I could take time off from work to get through my depression now and try to take care of me, but my job will not pay me for not being here.  I think I have to rethink my idea of buying lots of scratch off tickets.  I try to come here as much as possible and blog but if work or life gets too busy I don't sign on.  Then when I do come here it's late at night when I should be asleep. But I am trying to find some happier things to keep me going, it's just hard with my health issues at this moment. 

Punch :

 

after my stroke I dealt with depression & I felt depression worst than my stroke. are you taking any antidepressants. I initially resisted them, but taking them helped me big time, it allowed me to look at the sunshine beyond clouds. though I feel along with those meds having routine, exercise & reading good spiritual books all help me deal with my post stroke life . I was able to wean myself off antidepressant pills as soon as I found little bit control on my life. I found blogging chatting with other survivors all very therapeutic for my soul. hope to see you around often too.

 

Asha

Punch, just know you are in my Prayers. After my stroke I was so depressed. I sit in my bedroom and just have "bad thoughs". My daughter got me to the doctor, and I did take meds even I did not want to. They helped, and  i started to believe that they was life after a stroke.

Slowly, I began looking   forward, not backwards. I understand that you don't like fall. but try and get out. Nature, and fresh air is good for the soul. I started walking, baby steps, slow but steady.  I also join chat room, that help talking to people who knew what I was going through. Also reading about what others were going through helped me reading about others forgetting about I was going through.  I stopped calling friends and family, some need to be off the list, but some are cool people and were please to hear from me.  

I wish you all the best

Yvonne