The past 2 days Chris has been saying to me that he feels he is "stressing me out."

I have tried to tell him numerous times that that is not so. Maybe I am giving him some type of signal that he is picking up on. I don't know. I do know that I have been tired the past few days. I don't want him to think this. He has been somewhat demanding lately. I really think alot of the stress I'm feeling is coming from the aide situation. I really need to deceide if I can do this without an aide - meaning taking care of Chris and continuing to work. I have alot of thinking to do.

One thing that I'm already getting frustrated with are these little set backs. He was home only 1 week when he ended up in the hospital again for a week and last night I thought he had fever. Ya know that mother test when you just know by feeling the forehead with your lips. He was also red in the face. Well tonight he has blood in his urine. Probably a bladder infection. So Monday I call the doctor one more time. I feel like I'm becoming very good friends with the staff and his doctor. A bladder infection concerns me because Chris did have trouble with kidney stones many times and the last time he had a bladder infection he also had a change in mental status. He ended up in the ER, he was totally confused and yelled non-stop.

Hopefully whatever it is it can be caught before it gets out of hand.