Hey everyone. This week has been new too me... I dent know what it is. Me getting older or me being affriad to let people know what i feel.
Yesterday (I know how many people say this i don't want to be in the cleshea) I honestly think i found myself. That i can do things on my own and tell people what i think. It took me a while to forgive myself, letting myself know that i didn't started anything. The illness of my father, the death of my granfather. I knew it wisent my fault. But i always thought, "Maybe if i said something before it happened, i could have given them more strenght." And i have hated myself for it. I blamed myself everyday for it. But now i know that i can calm down, and know it wisent me.
I know this bloc just seems like a regular 15 year old. One with angst and optimism. And it is. And i have final come to terms that this is me. And that this is the person i was meant to be. And if no one else in this world can see it, i am fine with it. I am final happy with myself and i am not changing anymore.
I need to thank you guys once augean. For listening to what i need to say. And not disproving of it. But taking time to look. Thank you guys.