Hey everyone. So sorry i havent really been on at all lately. I've been bussy with school and stuff. I just wanted to say hi.
This year is not going as well as i thought it would. For my dad, everything has gotten better. He now owns a company with my uncle. They were actualy on the news today, with the woman who got all the trash dumped in her drive way. But for me everything just seems to be a mess. I'm not doign as good i should be in school, my teachers are gaining up on my, my sister
Hey everyone! Wow i cant believe i have been gone for so long. It has been crazy between school, and family. It has been a year sense my dad had a stroke on september 16the and much has changed. Both my mother and father now have jobs, and my dad will be starting soon.
I am still in a on how i hvanet been writing to you guys!! I already had two projects in school so that might explain allot. Goodness i have to tell you guys so much. Well in school i am doing good, so far my grades are, e
Hey everyone. This whole month has been very hecktick. And not such a good one for myslef. let me begin, i need to get it off my chest or it will be dewling in my mind on the first day of school
It all started beffore i went to my grandmothers house. It was the night beffore. I couldent sleep and for the life of me nothing was helping. And then it started, I just had a rush of fear and panick come through me, I was shaking and i couldetn stop crying, for no reason at all. And then the wor
Hey everyone. How have you all been? This is one of the last weeks of summer for me, and i am enjoying every moment of it. I have been trying to fit some extra credti work into my summer... But i just dont want to do it lol. I have been occupied by writting.
This week has been okay. I have just been getting these freaky flash backs of me seeing my dad for the first time. My mom told me it is normal, so i kind of just closed it. Thank you to everyone who was in the chat room the outher ni
Hey everyone. This week has been new too me... I dent know what it is. Me getting older or me being affriad to let people know what i feel.
Yesterday (I know how many people say this i don't want to be in the cleshea) I honestly think i found myself. That i can do things on my own and tell people what i think. It took me a while to forgive myself, letting myself know that i didn't started anything. The illness of my father, the death of my granfather. I knew it wisent my fault. But i alw
Just a poem i was making, here it is...
The silver Lining,
fading fast. Leaving nothing
but the afterglow of life in its
Looking, cetching your eyes
to mine. Your everythought
pouring from you.
The yellow stars,
fading... Becasue the
afterglow caught up
I know, it honestly makes no scence. But thats what you get when you have a sleep diprived 14 year old writing at 4 in the morning. lol. I realy dont understand the meaning... guess i wro
Hey everyone. Today has been quite normal. And boring may i add. I am going over to my friends house latter to make another one of our short randum films. I am posting them on the internet soon so you can all see the madness. lol
I just started reading the new Harry Potter book, (Like everyone my age lol) and let me tell you how scared i was. My friends wanted to go to a borders book party beffore the book got released. Now, we have t go back a year when the 5th book came out. I went with
Hey everyone. Today i am not in the greatest mood. I had a dream about my grandfather who passed away... he was on the outher line (On the phone) Then in the middle of saying "I love you" The phone died. So i woke up crying. My cousin, and best friend is moving today... and everyone in my house is at work most of the day.
So i dicided to come here. Mabey you guys can cheer me up, you always do. lol. Ill write more latter, i have to go do summer reading for school. Bye...
Hey everyone. Sorry i havent written in a long time. I am actualy not in New York, but in New Hampshier. It is beatifull here, it is less hecktec, and i wrote some good songs and poetry. I left home about three weeks ago and i am coming back in a day i miss my mom, my dad, and my overly fluffy dog.
It has been an intresting summer so far, My mom is now working at a home for the mentaly disabled and injured. I think i jumped up and down more then she did. She will be going to school to
Thank god. School is finaly over. And i am leaving in three days to see my best friend. I dont know why but this year, It feels weird to be leaving school. I guess becuase in 3 years i will be graduating high school... or the next year is my first year "of" high school.
This year (As you have seen in my outher post hehe) Has been very hectiv. But i always seem to find the light in most things. Even deadly algerbra. lol. Well i just thought today that i would check in. I might write more la
When i first came here, i wanted people to take in what i have said. For the first time i wanted people to listen. And you do. To know i can come home from school and read what amazing things you all have wrttin comforst me and makes me feel like my words have gotten acrosse.
You may not know. But everyone on this site is my inspiration. The survivors, The caregivers, The family, The people who are just consernd. You all give me the strength to improve. To be my self. To know what i am say
I am in love. Like all 8th graders. But why? We know it is only going to last a couple months and that we are setting are selfs up for heart break. But yet we do it lol. I was just thinking that we get are hopes up like "Mabey we will saty together a little more then a month this time." lol. But love is something you should save for someone you realy love, not something that will last like two days. I think i am in love the way you are when you are truly in love. lol. Any suggestions for me to g
I dont know why, But today i noticed how amazing the rain is. And it just hit me "Wow it rains alot in new york." But it was me and my cousins just singing in the rain. It felt like an amazing dream.
I Know short entry. But i am going to go watch my dog, because as we all know, golden retrievers and bunnies dont mix. Bye bye.
Peace and Love
The Holiday all mom's Love. Mothers day. I never thought about it as a big thing. Just something i would do once a year for my mom, Cook, clean, And do the dishes for her. But this year it was diffrent. This year it brought me to tears.
My mom has made amazing sacrafises so my whole family can heal after what happend this year. I reflected on what happend, My father had a nearly fatal stroke, My grandfather passed away, And we were always her first priorty. Never her self. It is amazing ho
Sometimes we need to make sacrafices for the good of outhers. I have made many. But I never noticed. Today my fathers sacrafises went away.
I never thought i would see the day that my dad would finish ot and pt. But it came. He gave up everything to try and better his health and his well being. And i Am amzed that he did, becuase something like that is hard to give up.
But sometimes, you want to make those sacrafices for the ones you love. Giving up something you love can open ne
We have all heard it, Why me? I have said it many times. And i have heard many people say it.
The reason I am writing this blog, Is becuase some people are affraid to hear the thoughts of an average teenager. But i am going to write it here and let people know how i feel.
To me life is amazing. Some people think, "The sooner its over the better" and then there are the optomist who whish they could see into the futre becuase they know what they have is priceless and can never reach