How on earth can someone be lonely with the houseful I have? Maybe I am tired, I don't know. The day has been too long and too many decisions had to be made and I was the one that had to make them. I just don't want to have to think of what needs to be done and has to be done tonight. I want some MM time to veg and then that darn ol' brain kicks in to high gear and here I am. Lost a card playing buddy yesterday. He was a real charmer. I hope he is as happy in heaven as he was here on earth. He could always make you smile right up until the hour before he died. God bless you Don and keep you in his arms forever.

The kids bio-mom is trying her damndest to make life as hard as possible and I just wish she would violate her parole and go back to prison where she belongs. I sure am not feeling very nice tonight. Not a very good Christian attitude. Maybe it is a good thing that I am alone in thought tonight, because the things that I am thinking are not good. I guess that I am in a self pity party and need to find something to kick my butt to get me out of it. Thank you God that I don't feel like this all the time. Our little man said to me today, " Why are you so busy ? Doesn't seem like you get anything done today." Out of the mouths of babes. He was right and I didn't see it. I guess that if I am going to strain my eyes I better do it looking at the bright side.