Val:

Happy anniversary of 9 months to you both. do call him today and tell him all the stuff you wrote here. he is lucky to have you who is not afraid to go through this(which is equivalent to fire in my mind), though sometime we survivor have initial reaction that our caregivers can leave us and not stay with us out of pity, I know I have said this to my hubby of 15 years many tiimes, and he now says everytime I say that he feels insulted. but I think its normal reaction of survivor, we don't want our loved one to go through hell for us., but I know I will be lost without him.

Asha

I just talked to him and it felt so good to hear his voice. He sounds better than the other day but his best friend said he was still pretty down, which is quite understandable. I did tell him I'd never give up on him. He told me "don't" and I told him I wouldn't. We shared "I love yous" numerous times before hanging up. I told him it was our anniversary and he wished me a happy one. I guess I'm going to make the "new normal" for phone calls to be twice a week. It's hard as hell on me but if it's easier on him, I'm willing to do it. I miss him so much.

I'm glad you spoke with him...how wonderful!!!! It WILL work out...it just feels right!!!

Happy 9 month anniversary to both of you. I agree with Robyn - things will be ok - it feels right.