can a person be in a committed relationship and still be attracted emotionally and physically to another person? or should i say, HOW can a person have these feelings? i guess it goes without saying that i'm referring to myself. not that i would ever try to ACT on these feelings, but i have them and i'm not doing anything to stop them. it makes me feel guilty because i have never had them before. but not guilty enough to cease contact with the object of my attraction.

does "the object" KNOW how i feel, i don't think so and i certainly haven't told them. i thought it would go away after a time, but instead it gets more intense. it makes me wonder what i am lacking as a person to have these feelings. i guess as long as it's my little secret, it's okay . probably not, okay, that is. but i'm enjoying it too much to give it up. maybe time will take care of it and the friendship will remain long after the infatuation goes away.

i can always hope