Kim,

I don't think you're way off base being skeptical of others.

I've learned not to put trust in people because people will disappoint 100 % of the time.

The only One who is worthy of complete trust is God.

Kim, thank you for typing my blog. Now I don't have to do it tonight.

PS. Aint nothin' wrong with mental illness. Some of my best friends are crazy.

Mental illness can be good if you use it to your advantage, I use short term

memory loss to my advantage and so far it works.

As you say in your message, paranoia creeps up in every situation, I think that it is natural, it's just that if you spend too much time on that issue, something is not right.

The situations that you describe, same here, I look for the con aspect, I grew up in some pretty rough times in an industrial city, soot and smoke and now there is a vicious war going on but then again there always has been. It none of this affects us then we are far, far gone.

It's normal to be paranoid in paranoid times, we live in paranoid times, don't worry about your condition, it will clear up. Don't worry, be happy.

I lost my fear of no longer being a human some while ago, I accepted it 100 percent and for that I am a better person. Don't worry about being insane, in my lifetime thus far I have yet to meet a truly sane person. Make your fantasies fun, be crazy in a good way, not in a bad way.

Reading a newpaper or listening to a news program, it's all designed to make us nuts, paranoid, insane, take your choice.

Cheers,

Rod