Right now I am not happy. I am not sad. I just wanted someone to talk to so I decided to blog. Right now I am on Spring break. My dad is supposed to be taking me out of town for a vacation this weekend but until then I will be working on papers. My youngest brother had his first son about a month ago. I became an aunt for the 6th time. It sounds cute but I just want the baby to stop crying every night and waking me up every morning with his loud screams! Needless to say, this "spring break" has not been relaxing at all. Even if I finish 5 papers this week, I still have 5 more papers to do before the end of the semester. But on the bright side, I will be graduating in December (a whole semester early.) Besides being swamped with work and coordinating educational programs for students on campus, I have just been hanging in there.

I did community service about a month ago at a Veterans Rest home. I met a man who had a stroke. I shared my story with him. He told me I was too young and pretty to have a stroke. Then he said he used to think he was too rough and tough to have a stroke. I wish I could go visit him again. Even though he was much older than me, it still felt good to be face to face with someone who could only use their right hand also. I enjoyed helping him play bingo. It was actually therapeutic for me also by making me scan the cards where my left field vision did not register.

I also hung out with a friend from school. He had one leg amputated but now he has a prosthetic so he can walk. I like hanging out with him. It feels good to be able to make handicap jokes with each other without either one of us feeling offended. He reminds me how lucky we are to have a gift that other people dont, how special and strong we are to have been through what we experienced.

I got a pedicure today. I like pedicures. They make me feel normal. I cant wear heels or most sandals or get my nails done but I can get pedicures Not only do they make my feet feel better but they make me feel cool in some kind of way.

Over the weekend I went out of town with my sorority sisters to a party. Even though I dont listen to rap music and I dont dance, it still made me feel kind of cool to be at the party. One of the girls there even grabbed both of my hands and danced with me. It felt so great. I would have never danced by myself. It was something about her grabbing BOTH of my hands in the air that made me feel like I didnt look so bad dancing after all. Thank God I was able to walk around the dark gym and through the big crowds without tripping and falling. Hanging out with the big girls definitely made me feel good. It was better than spending the night alone in my apartment wishing I could do what everybody else could. For once I experienced what it felt like to be a college student out on a friday night Dont worry aunties I did not engage in the smoking, drinking, or promiscuity.

Well I am going to get ready for bed now. I have to finish these papers tomorrow. Hopefully my dad will take me on a vacation this weekend and hopefully it will be worth it because Monday I have 4 classes, physical therapy, and a dentist appointment, among other things.

Goodnight

Goodnight