I wanted to use this entry to thank everyone for their comments, advice and suggestions. Believe me, they are helpful and do not go unrecognized.

I do think I am blessed sometimes despite the bad times. I believe difficult times happen to people and with them comes knowledge and a wisdom few possess.

I spend so much time thinking, "why me" or "I have lost so much" or "who would want me now" or "my dreams are all gone". It is a very depressing place to be, probably a normal place to be. But there is another place, just over the mental ridge and it is a place where we can change the way we look at our world. It is a place of new ideas, new life, new boundaries and parameters. It is also a place where the fear doesn't monopolize time. It must be a function of our higher thinking. I am now just realizing this and it is powerful.

Today I am tired but have no other complaints. Much Thanks to everyone for all the continuing support. It has had a positive effect and improved my outlook.

Cheers'