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Dammit, dammit, dammit!



I tried. I really tried not to let that person in the break room bother me. Unfortunately, I still don't seem to have a whole lot of control over my emotions.


As soon as I made the last post, the one where I thought I was doing so well and had found a better way to deal with the situation, a co-worker asked me a question. As soon as I opened my mouth, I started stuttering........BAD!


That is what happens every time I get upset, excited, anxious, angry, sad, etc. Either that or I start coughing to the point of throwing up. Dammit! I wish I had more control over my reactions!


Ok, I need to calm down. I need to get back on an even keel. I'm writing about it so it is out and won't bother me so much. Step 1 complete. I put a music cd in my computer. Music helps me relax. Step 2 complete. It's just a littloe time now.


On a side note, my boss heard the stuttering and came over to my desk to see if I was ok. I explained, as best I could, what had happened and that this is just what happens under emotional stress. He was very patient, listened intently, then asked me if I needed anything or there was anything he could do to help me. He also said he would talk to HR about the incident if I wanted him too. It still surprises me, sometimes, how understanding and supportive he is. I don't know of too many people who could say that about their boss. I'm thankful I can.


OK, I'm starting to feel like my engine isn't reving so hard or so fast any more. This is helping. I'll be ok.


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Greetings! You're doing remarkably well and you will continue to improve with time and mental exercise. I know how frustrating it can be when your brain doesn't react the way you expect it to (in my case, I lost the names of all of the streets in and around my neighborhood, among other things). It does take time to recover and you're going to be frustrated in the process. It sounds like you've got a terrific boss and employer --- concentrate on them when the less empathetic (and ignorant) co-workers start to get under your skin.


Remember, too, that it's only been 2 months since your brain experienced a fairly traumatic event ("minor" is only a comparative term...) and it's re-learning how to work around the damaged area. I'll bet you're going to be able to forgo the cane in another month or two, too...

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Hi I'm Sally and a caregiver to my hubby but I get stressed too so what I do is take a deep breath and sing the Mary Tayor Moore theme I"M GOING TO MAKE IT AFTER ALL Hope that your old enough to remenber the song LOL

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You are doing well. The best advice I have is don't acknowledge this person. She is just doing what she's doing just to aggravate you . She'll get the message that you don't care. remembertolaugh,


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