Welp so I was thinking on what some of y'all had said regaurding my last blog so I've been making a bigger effort. My mood swing and funks are a pain but she is understanding so. Been soing her hair and nails and playing around with her and taking her shopping and coloring and watching movies. i have noticed tho just of late that she like to ask A LOT of questions during movies lol. " What happened to him? what's that on his face? why is she doing that? Where are they? Why are they there? Why is he in jail?" Lol. I'm trying and it does seem to be helping. Charlies taking her when I get overwhelmed, like right now he and her are at the park and I'm taking some me time after I took her shopping and played with her and helped her clean her room today. I got my CT results back and they said I am improving which I'm excited about. I still have to be reallly careful and stay on my coumadin but they said " It's not normal but it's more normal than before" But I'm also starting to think that all these changes are permanent.... And that is scary.... I don't like this me. I like the old me. I don't want to be like this. I'll figure something out. But as for now I'm going to bask in my good CT results.