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Finally

It's been almost a year since my stroke and I'm happy to say that I am completely heal. I still have to deal with my brain damage and my memory lost and balance issues but today is my birthday and I can't even say how happy I am to be celebrating another one.

Jillian26

Jillian26

Wow, what now?

I went and had my last cerebral angiogram done a week and a half ago, and I'm all healed. Everything is better. My clots are gone and my arteries are healed. It's amazing. I don't really know how to react to it because i've been sick for so long. It's almost like I believe it but at the same I'm waiting for the other shoes to drop. I feel as thought i've gotten the wind back in my sails for the first time in a long time. Charlie and Trinity have been so happy lately. Trinity has saying that she

Jillian26

Jillian26

Hmmmm

Welp so I was thinking on what some of y'all had said regaurding my last blog so I've been making a bigger effort. My mood swing and funks are a pain but she is understanding so. Been soing her hair and nails and playing around with her and taking her shopping and coloring and watching movies. i have noticed tho just of late that she like to ask A LOT of questions during movies lol. " What happened to him? what's that on his face? why is she doing that? Where are they? Why are they there? Why is

Jillian26

Jillian26

Feelin Lowsy

Ugh. So I just had one of them days. I wasn't feeling good today and then on top of that I had my CT so I couldn't eat after 10:30. After that I just wanted some peace and quiet and i just feel so bad because I keep pushing Trinity away. I feel like the eight hours that she is at school isn't enough time away from her and it makes me feel like a horrible mother. I just want peace a quiet all the time anymore. I feel so lowsy. What's wrong with me? I don't want to make her feel like I don't love

Jillian26

Jillian26

Things Looking Up

Haven't been around in awhile, I know. Thinks have been so.... interesting. Charlie got to stay behind. And then my brother came home for leave from over seas and had a family 911 and had to stay for emergency custody of his girls so he moved in with us for awhile. I think that I've found a pace with my recovery. I'm still a little scare. Not as much as everyone else though. I have a agenda so that i can keep up with my coumadin doses and all my doctor appointments and I've printed out all the t

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Jillian26

Ergh!!

So for about the past two or three weeks or so, we have been really trying to work on keeping Charlie here when his ship gets underway on this month, but to no avail. Even with a letter from my doctor saying that what happened to me usually kills the ppl it happens to, but also that if it happens again it will most likely kill me, and that I am still in critical yet stable condition. But they don't care. Their words were " Her family needs to sucks it up and help". Excuse me?? Who the hell do y

Jillian26

Jillian26

A stroke scare.

Just had a stroke scare. Had all the symptoms minus the double vision and nausea. Lightheaded, dizzy, weak, unbalanced, hearing when out, got really hot like heat flash hot, and rapid heart beat. Just sat down and took deep breaths and asked God not again, and it went away after about five mins. Scared the ever living crap outta me though. I'm in bed and i'm staying here for like...... Ever. I thought that i was taking it easy. i mean i've been running errands and things but nothing big and i th

Jillian26

Jillian26

12/19/2010

Another pre-Christmas day. Everyone and they mom is out and about. Online shopping is the way we went. Too crazy too go out. Have to go out tomorrow but only for a few things for my neices. Starting taking my anti-depressants two days ago. I'm hoping that I start to see a change here soon. I've lost almost 50 pounds in the last year and it's help me so much in way of my self esteem, but since this, I've gained back 15 of that and not feeling so hot. Not to mention I'm angry and irritated all the

Jillian26

Jillian26

My Stroke Testimony/Story

About a month ago, I had a stroke. I’m 26 years old and I suffered a stroke. Kind of hard to wrap my head around. The arteries in the back of my brain are torn and clotted closed. We don’t really know how long I was walking around like this for, but about a month ago, I was standing in my dining room, I cracked my neck and down I went. I remember most of that night but what I remember the most was how scared I was because I had no idea what was happening to me, but I knew that it was very seriou

Jillian26

Jillian26

12/9/2002

Having a very good mood day today. That usually makes everything else bareble so. My hair is a genuine hot mess but i think it looks awesome, lol. I have no doctors appointments today which is nice. Had my first physical rehabilitation and medicine appt yesterday. it was so long. My appt was at 10:20 but i didn't see the doc til like 12 and then Charlie had to leave me there cause Trinity had half days at school on Wednesdays and he had to be back at the house by 12:30 to get her off the bus so

Jillian26

Jillian26

12/7/2010

Had a doctors appt today. Seems the reason that I am having trouble sleeping is because I am depressed. Got some anti-depressant. Hopefully they help. I'm starting to get extrememly frustrated with myself. Everything is taking so much more concentration to do. Even having a simple convo. Charlie is starting to know what I am talking about which helps with the frustration a lot. Also had my blood tested again today. Way too thin so eating some veggie to help that. A delicious way to help, lol. No

Jillian26

Jillian26

12/3/2010

Had a good past few days. I got new pain killers and a big supply so I should be good for a while. I do enjoy no being in intense pain, lol. I drove my F150 for the first time yesterday with virtually no difficulty and I was extrememly happy with that, although really nervous. I find that driving my big heavy duty F150 is so much easier than driving the Altima. Wonder why that is. I've noticed that, after reading ppl stories on hear and other places that I got really lucky. A lot of my ailments

Jillian26

Jillian26

11/29/2010

Well a new pain has shown up and it's scary. I know that i had it before my stroke but me trying to get rid of it brought it on and now it has spread. Charlie made me mad cause he didn't think anything was wrong. It's 11:50 pm right now and I'm still awake and might be for a while. It seems the only thing that help me sleep are the pain meds. It's a lot of pain and while all my injuries from the car accident, I'm used to pretty moderate pain most of the time, this is crazy. Can't get comfortable

Jillian26

Jillian26

11/27/2010

Laid in bed most of the day. Wondering when my life will start to get back to normal. I don't know what kinds of changes thishas made on me. The first two days I was home from the hospital, I was so angry and I took it out on Charlie. Every little thing he did just bugged the crap outta me. I feel like, crap that i did that but at the same time I don't know why I did. No more fighting at this point which is good. He doesnt let me do much tho. We're just afraid that i'm going to have another stro

Jillian26

Jillian26