I don't know why this still bothers me so much....
One of my co-workers doesn't like me, on principle. She even gave my daughter a hard time when she started working here, just because she is my daughter, but that is a story for another time. Now she is taking aim at me again.
I've been "loaned out" to the workforce dept. for a while, to help them get things caught up. I'm working attendance exceptions for them. It isn't rocket science. But that affects this one co-worker's agents' attendance. So she is writing nastygrams to my boss and everyone she can think of, telling them that I need more training because I don't know what I am doing. The fact of the matter is, I"m doing EXACTLY what I was trained to do. She just didn't read the latest emails about policy changes, so she THINKS I've made a mistake. I haven't, and that was proven by a member of the workforce team this morning when he went over what I did for last week. This one co-worker is just being a queen B with an itch. Thay is, after all, her typical personality. I could tell stories, but that too is a post for another time.
So, because this 1 co-worker is yelling and screaming, instead of simply saying "I was wrong, I'm sorry," the head of the workforce dept., now, doesn'st trust that I can perform what is, basically, a simple task. So she and my boss have now decided "I need to be monitored." Everything I do is being sceond guessed and my accuracy is being constantly called into question. the next 2.5 months can't go by quick enough for me.
I'm wondering if the p[ressure is being added on, to make me unable to do my job, and force me into a layoff situation. They won't get me to quit before I am ready. If I leave here before August, it will be as elidgeble for unemployment benifits. You can count on that. And, because of the stroke, Medicade will pick me up so that I can continue to see my doctors. So, they can complain about my quality, or the lack thereof, for as long as they want to. They can go to HR and complain every day from now until the day they decide that they can no longer afford to keep me on. I won't quit. They don't get that satisfaction.
But the fact that I even question if this is what is being done, bothers me. I've given 13+ years of devoted service to this scompany. I deserve to be treated better. Just because I am not able, right now, to perform at the "miles above what is expected," for the first time in 13 years, does not mean I am suddenly being lazy. It means I had a traumatic brain injury - called a stroke, and that takes a long time to heal. It just upsets me that there are people in my office so insensitive and self-absorbed, as to be so nasty. But for the grace of God go they. Did they ever stop to think about that?
And the co-worker who started all of this has a husband who is a STROKE SURVIVOR, for Pete's sake! She, of all people, should understand. But no, she is just as I described her, a bitter, resentful, self-absorber b with an itch! Her personality is almost enough to make me think very un-Christian thoughts and wish very un-Christian things to her. But I won't give her that satisfaction either!
I keep telling myself that "what you put out in the universe, you get back." One of these days, all of this negative energy she has pointed toward so many people will come back and she will have to deal with it. "Sooner or later, everybody's bill comes due." I don't think she has any idea how big her bill is!