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Do not try this at home...

So..., i wake each day with wondering if my mind and body will continue to function and improve or at least maintain. So far so good, my head is getting more and more clear (most days), my body is also improving, and i honestly think the fog (drug induced) of the last year has lifted. This is causing me to reconsider life, as i find myself in the position of having thought i had lost everything including the will to live, only to discover that all is not lost. The notion that i may be somewha

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My... How things can change!!!!

These last few days have been so interesting. I'm finding myself with ever increasing mental clarity, memory and, relative to where i was, seemingly boundless energy. After all but have given up on any semblance of life i find that all i am doing is looking forward with enthusiam and hope. I have resumed the renovations on my house that had been stopped in their tracks over a year ago. I find myself making plans for the upcoming year instead of dwelling on where i had been. It feels like i have

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IT WORKED.......!!!!!!!

Well I did what is said I was going to do and wean myself off of all the meds I had been prescribed. I was feeling really very desperate because it seemed like I was only just living. There were only a couple of hours a day that I could remember and absolutely no physical energy at all. I was alive but felt there was no point to it. And…, it wasn’t getting better! I don’t suggest this for anyone and everyone should see a doctor before changing or deleting a med from their daily regimen but in my

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Is it the meds.................???

I got to the neurologist yesterday... to try and figure out my problems with my short term memory, apathy, and fatigue. He suggested that the only thing that might be causing these symptoms might be the pain reliever that i have been using (cymbalta) and suggested a lower dose. That was good information and i started a lower dose this morning. But something about the doctor's suggestion, my experience with a statin i was on (which turned me into a total wreck) and Tony Frasier's recent bout with

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All i can do now is what i can do now....

So..., with each new entry i make i find i have to go back and re-read what i've already written... because i don't remember what it was that i wrote. This is unfortunate in that i want to be sure that i don't repeat myself, but fortunate as it sort of maintains a written record of where i have been and what i have been doing. This is really helpful for me because i don't recall any real sense of the days since i have had the strokes let alone what i wrote last. I guess it's been about 18 months

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So What do i do now...

So after the tension of yesterday i realized something. My day to day existence is just that..., i move from day to day with no real sense of anything. It's early now and my head is fairly clear so i can see how the passed couple of years has been for me. i worked, i worked thru the strokes, i worked until i couldn't work anymore and had to quit. It seems like there is nothing to look forward to except the next appointment with my doctor (and that's not much). I'm writing early because in a few

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I was a nervous wreck this morning...

Court was this morning to settle child support issues and i was really nervous which as most of us know only makes our symptoms worse. But just before court i called my dear, dear mother, just to hear a calm, friendly and caring voice. She helped me immensely. Thank the Universe for moms. Anyway, nothing was settled as my ex (the accountant) had no idea what i had paid her or even what i owed her so she asked for a continuance. This works out well for me 'cause my medical future has not been set

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Miscellaneous Meanderings

Well, a couple of days have passed and... first i have to say a huge THANK YOU to all of you who left very thoughtful and wise comments. Each of you said something that i really needed to hear and understand. I have always believed that the relationships with the kids and being marathons... not sprints. So i understand that they will understand everything as time goes by and we will reconcile in their time. And that is so okay. I also look at the hundreds (or thousands) of the struggles of oth

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As it goes...

I hope everyone will forgive me as i learn the ropes here.   So here goes...   My story continues on this first day of Dec. Not much has changed. I continue to deal with the day to day issues of the strokes (or should i say my strokes?). Nothing has been resolved in terms of their cause and i don't expect there will be any resolution until i get to see the cardiologist in january. So be it.   I have had many issues to deal with since stopping work on Oct. 8th and chief among them has bee

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So i've decided to start a blog

First, i have to say thank you to all of those individuals and survivors that have made this forum what it is and for the ongoing source of information and support that it provides. I am humbled and grateful...   I thought i would start this be copying my introduction to strokenet as a newcomer     Posted 02 November 2014 - 02:37 PM Hello, my name is Dean. I’m a newbie but I have followed this board for a while now and have found it very helpful. Why am I just making my first post? I don’t

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