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Almost a year

Tomorrow it will be a year since my dad's stroke. This week has been very emotional for me. My dad came home in March and has been slowly improving ever since but he still has a long way to go. Yesterday I went to see him and it was a bad day. He was upset and said that everything is his fault and that he would rather just shoot himself. I know that he doesn't mean it but yesterday was the worst day he has had in awhile and it was hard to hear him say that. I moved out in June because it was emo

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alot has happened

I have not logged on lately or blogged recently either and there has been a lot going on. I graduated with my Associate of Science and got accepted into my teaching program at TSU (Tennessee State University). About a week or two after I graduated I moved out of my parents home and started my independent life as an adult. I just couldn't take it anymore I love my family but the stress was unbearable for me literally and metaphorically. I was getting sick almost everyday and I wasn't eating or sl

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Nervous

I graduate this Saturday with my associate's degree. I am nervous about how dad will handle it. He doesn't like to be still or to be quiet for long periods of time. The ceremony is going to be an hour and a half and that may too much for him to handle. He seems excited about going but I hope that we don't have any problems. I am nervous for him as well as me.

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Day to Day

I haven't had time to get on here lately because I don't have the free time. There is so much going on right now. Dad is doing good but he has some really bad days too at times. He will go for hours just yelling and screaming about something and then when he finally stops and I tell him that what he has been yelling about is not what he thinks he heard me or my mom say. He gets things confused all the time and then gets mad. I have figured out to let him talk and then explain to him what I actua

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Busy Week Ahead

Not only do I have two tests and an interview this week dad also has a doctor's appointment. It is his cardiologist. I am going to be so glad when I graduate in May so that I can have some time off. Today is my 3 year 4 month anniversary with my boyfriend. I still can't believe that we have been through so much in just that short amount of time. Open heart surgery for dad, granny's stroke, his mother's surgery and now my dad's stroke. He has definitely seen me at my worst but no matter what he i

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Better day

Day I went to work and got to get away and stay distracted for a little while. My boyfriend called and told me how much he loves me and that he really misses me. It made me feel good to hear that he is there for me and that no matter what he will stay by my side. I was glad to have a break from dad and mom. Now just two more days at work and then back to school. I have my teaching program interview on Tuesday everyone please say a prayer I want to be accepted into my teaching program at TSU. Tod

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I want to scream

He is annoying me to death I swear we went over the same thing 20 times and he keeps yelling at me because he said that I keep saying something different well guess what he is wrong I said the exact same thing all 20 times. He wants to take more medicine than he should because he thinks that it will help faster and when we say no well he does it anyway. I am scared that he is going to overdose on something because he will keep talking the pills and won't listen. I have tried everything to remain

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Day to Day

Well last Thursday we took dad with us to the store that was the worst decision ever!! He wanted everything he saw and threw a huge fit. It took us two hours to get out of there. Then he refused to take his medicine. I wanted to quit so bad but instead I walked away and thank god for my amazing boyfriend he was there for me! Dad started his physical therapy on Monday and he actually did really well no complaints through the whole thing it was a miracle. I am learning what makes him mad and how t

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