Well today is another day and it is weird. I am still trying to be positive but I have faltered a little bit because I had a negative thought and I just moved it from my mind.
Sometimes this feels like a dream and I can
Well today is a pretty good day. I just sat around watching movies and resting. This is good.
I also told myself I need to read what I write in my blog, because I read what I wrote and all I can say is oh
Well I am in Texas with my mom for a couple of weeks so she can take care of some business.
I see now that I am pretty scared about going in public but I still go because I have to. I used to be such an out going personality but now I am quiet and reserved. Mostly because I get so frustrated to communicate so I just be quiet. Oh now that really doesn't make sense because I can talk not the best but I can do that. Why can't I seem to remember that?
The last couple of days I have d
Well today I have finished my sudoku and that is an accomplishment.
I am still trying to figure out me and who I am. I still get jealous because of all the things I used to do. I know I am supposed to focus on positive but then that little voice says well you should be mad and you should
Well today is my second day. It was going pretty good. I went to 2 dr appointments. They are telling me I need to start to enjoy things. I still ask how do I do that. I feel funny all the time. I have a dull headache occasionally but I am just supposed to just get back in there. I am SCARED and afraid and the first step is so hard. Sometimes I dream and everything is ok, I feel normal and then I wake up and see this is real and I feel no normal. WHY do I feel this way? Why can
Well I am entering the world of blogging because it is a needed step. I need to release all these feelings that I am holding in so I start my first blog so I can HEAL. I want to HEAL and get better. I miss me. I don