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one of those months - a whole term of stress

lily, my 12 yr old, has migraines. they are getting worse and she has missed half of last term. drs here wouldn't do anything so I had to go to another town. finally got a referral to a paediatrician. hoping he will be able to help. she takes deralin 2 tablets 3 times a day and they are not helping much. I am so frustrated and I am not coping the school is really good and very understanding thank God! I don't know what to do.

doreen payne

doreen payne

havn't been here for a long time

my aunt Robyn died on 19 June (day after my birthday), her house is being sold soon and it has been in the family a long time. my grandparents owned it. been sick with 2 chest infections too which sux. I have major depression and dr don't care. meant to go to the specialist at the end of November but can't afford it. money is really tight at the moment. I am feeling really bad at the moment and alone. been drinking a bit too. think I will just get drunk at Christmas as it will be bad without m

doreen payne

doreen payne

giving up

since my strokes (dec 08 and march 09) my emotions are affected. I get angry easily and cry at the drop of a hat and stuff like this. it's so frustrating for me and my family. my mom and daughter - steffi is 18 - blame me for everything. apparently they are not to blame at all. I'm just sick of it and wish they would leave me alone or something. sent steffi to my mom's house tonight cause it was too frustrating. everything can't be my fault. my family don't care about learning about strokes

doreen payne

doreen payne

nice day

all is fixed!!!!! mom and I are talking again. I apologized. it was like she flipped a switch and she was normal again. I hope I get enough warning next time to run to the hills. the kittens are home - 2 of them anyway. the other 4 found new homes. my girls are well and I am too. it's a lovely Saturday afternoon here.

doreen payne

doreen payne

not very happy

everything is going wrong at the moment. my mom has the shits with me for some reason. she started being feral yesterday and today she more feral. I don't know why I'm in trouble again. this happens every few weeks lately. mom is fine with everyone else but me. mom told me that my friend is going to laugh at me and not help me, I'm a bad mother, etc, etc. my friend is taking me shopping today as mom normally does it with me. I guess no exercises tomorrow either. my mom seems to hate

doreen payne

doreen payne

my friend

Rosemary didn't turn up or call or anything. I tried ringing but no one answered. I don't know what happened. I'm peeved though. Jan (my other friend) lives in Trundle and her doctor thinks she's going to have a stroke or heart attack. She's worried and so am I. she's on medication now. It started with her arm going numb all the time. Jan has to have more tests, etc.

doreen payne

doreen payne

Not much happening here

yesterday I helped with Operation Christmas Child. There's a link.   About OCC   Operation Christmas Child is a unique project of Samaritan

doreen payne

doreen payne

Leo (our cat) is feeling much better

Leo (she's a girl) had kittens 4 weeks ago. last Saturday she had go the vet - she was sick. she's got antibiotics, etc. Leo is recovering really well. She was rundown and she had fleas. The kittens are going fostered for the next 3 weeks. I've missed the kittens but the vet tells me they are in a good hands. The foster mom is keeping one of the kittens. We are keeping 2 of them and the other 3 have homes when they are old enough. I've got a pic of them with the mom. Chat was good tod

doreen payne

doreen payne

a new day

I feel better now. I had a big sleep and that helped. Didn't go to exercises as I have the flu and sinus affection. I told my cousin about this site as she had a stroke 6 months ago. Hope she pops in! Steffi is asleep and Lily's not here at the moment. She's in Eugowra for the school holidays. It's my anniversary for the 1 st stroke in December. So much has changed!!!!! I'm glad that I'm alive and have the girls here with me. I remember after the 2 second stroke I couldn't figure out

doreen payne

doreen payne

how I feel tonight

anyway at the moment I am really down. I need all my top teeth out and a denture in. anyway my aunt (Robyn) is a control freak and ring me up and upset me. my uncle was going to help with the dentures and stuff but my aunt told me that I can pay for the dentures and stuff my self. Robyn and Warren (my uncle) are sister and brother. I have bad week - lots of traveling, and things going wrong. need to catch up on my sleep. on the plus side my specialist said that I going well and have to g

doreen payne

doreen payne