OK, so I am almost done with my semester at school. My grades are great. I have a 3.9 GPA. I just am having a really hard time getting excited about things that I can still do that I love. After the stroke and the ultimate realization of paralysis and finding out that my voice was not affected I was so happy since I could still sing. Before everything, I was a singer, dancer, diver, actress, among other things. The only thing left that I could still countinue from those was the singing. I am now
I know that i just reported really awesome news and don't get me wrong, i am so excited. I just feel utterly unappreciated. My dad decided that instead of going to my induction he was going to go and do something for boyscouts. I understand that he is the scout master and what not but COME ON!!!!!!!!!! How many times is your child elected student body president. I know its stupid and i shouldn't even worry about it but it *beep* my off. Thanks for listening. No responses required.
Ok, this is totaly random but i just had to share that I have been elected as the student body president of my college. How creepy is that. Creepy but so AWESOME. I am so psyched. Have a great day everyone.
I honestly can not tell if my parents are on my side or not. Everything that comes out of their mouth is so negative. Like, I will never get a job is a wheelchair, I will never live on my own, etc... Damn. It isn't like I asked for this. I thought family was supposed to be supportive not make you feel worse. Then they have the nerve to say that I don't act upset enough. I am so sorry, I guess i'll just stay in my room all the time and never come out. It doesn't matter, what ever i do, its wrong.
Well, I honestly didn't expect what I was told today. I do have an SCI, spinal cord injury, but it is from something that I would have never thought. a virus. they are thinking that I got the virus from the spinal tap and that it ate away at my spinal cord. Ummmmmmm creepy. Well theres the update Have a great day everyone.
Becky from Chicago
I hate pain. I am usually very pain tolerant but today was very different. I almost actually lost my breathe a few times cuz the pain in my back was so intense. Unfortunately nothing has helped it yet. I have a doc appt. tomorrow so maybe if it is still acting up I will get something for it. I was told to take an over the counter pain med but for pain like this, IT ISN"T GOING TO WORK PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate being governed by what
I just want to clarify. I DO NOT WANT A SPINAL CORD INJURY, however, there has to be an explination for a 23 year old who had a stroke who still can not walk. Personally that is the only reason that I see. Everyone else on this site, who is around my age, is doing so well and so much better then I am. I am over a year post stroke.
Becky from Chicago
I am so happy. the doctor that i saw yesterday at Rush called me this moring. She said that she talked with the first doc that saw me and they decided to look over everything again. maybe there are some reasonable docs in the world of modern medicine.
Becky from Chicago
Honestly, I swear all doctors are idiots. one says one thing and then i go for the second opinion and that one says something totally different. thie doc i saw today doesn't know if the inability to walk is actually from the spinal injury or if it is a psychological problem. EXCUSE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know that I have depression but COME ON. So anyway, I am going to comply with the treatment that he is suggesting and do this therapy thing. I have been in therapy for my depression
I know that usually ppl enjoy when they have time off from school but i am on my spring break this week and I really am want4ing to not be. i want to be out of the house and aways from my family. I guess I am way to comfortable spending time by myself and doing things the way that I want when I want. I use school as an escape, which is sorta sad. I make up reasons to go there and to stay. I even make up homework that I have to do. HOW SAD IS THAT?????? Oh well, atleast today was a little better
I know that I posted about this in the stroke survivor forum but I just created this blog so I figured I would let more of my anger and frusteration at my situation out. I hate what has happened to me. I hate the fact that everyone believes I am not trying hard enough to "get better". I want to be "normal". I know normal is relevant but I didn't have a chance to be normal. Everything that I had has been stripped. I was a dancer, a diver, a nursing major, an ice skater. All of which, you need you